Loneliness is Good

So being a mom contains a lot of fun (and difficulty and challenges and cleaning and wiping and trying to understand what is going on with your kids) discoveries about the upbringing of our kids.

When i first started being a housewife, i felt super deprived.
I was deprived of my social needs.
For many years i have been surrounded by people and suddenly, i was alone with a weeping child and it was lonely.

I'm lucky and grateful that i live near to my parent's house which means my only socialising activities were around my mom. But still. I felt left out of my own circle.

Friends around me started talking about stuff that i gradually couldn't catch up with, and there were times i just listen and pretend to be part of something.

Lama lama, i just gave up.
I hate pretending and i hate feeling like i "need" to belong.

I belong to me.
I should be happy with me.
And my family, of course. Especially my kids, since i'm with them 24-7.

So i started on my own path away from my people.
Walking alone and facing my problems as alone as i could, and keeping all the stories to myself.

What i realised now after all these years, is that this is Allah's way of keeping me away from things i were participating in:
Gossiping
Bad mouthing
Unnecessary talking

I still have to control on my word vomit, but the big part was staying away from it.

If you're feeling lonely, left out and perhaps irrelevant, know that it's the only way we can learn to control ourselves.
If Allah doesn't present this "loneliness" to us, we probably gain more sins (nauzubillah min zalik), so maybe loneliness is not so bad!


Being by ourselves with our own thoughts, actions and words in control, it allows us to be who we truly are.

Don't be afraid of loneliness.

Accept it, and use it to be a better person.
InshaAllah =)

Cue lagu BSB =p
Hehehee!

Mommying at home

The other day, i solat isyak, pastu nadrah put a stack of diapers right where i aimed to place my dahi, pastu isaac pulak duk berguling guling dalam telekung.

And baru je ni, isaac gave me his rattler. I don't know why either, but it's the thought that counts kan?

=')

Sebenarnya, sejujurnya, i rasa segan sangat nak share pasal my own parenting journey sebabnya satu:

I'm not good at it.

Tapi i think it's safe to say all moms feel like this kot.

Ke i sorang...

Amboi korang.

=p

Namun itu, sebab ramai betul yang tanya kat dm instagram pasal tips ni la tips tu la, sampai i rasa cam... korang... please... itu semua instagram je!!!

In real life, parenting is.. A LOT.

Especially for a WAHM & SAHM, yang memang berkepit ngan anak anak ni. Simply because everything that your child is (gesturing a child), is because of you (points to self).

It's a HUGE pressure! We can't blame anyone else! Not the cikgu tadika, not the nursery (what nursery??), not our siblings. Kita la. Kita punya pasal. Kita tak pandai didik anak.

*lari sambil nangis*

We just want to create decent human beans! Ingatkan anak keluar je terus boleh duduk kaki simpuh makan tertib, minum pun tertib.

Realiti nya: berak merata, makan dan minum tertumpah sana sini, kita masak rasa sedap dah, tapi dia pulak tak nak, kita dah nak tido dah pastu muntah lak dia atas katil.

Hehehe!

It sounds funny, but it is extremely tiring. Tu baru bab mengemas.

Bab mengajar lak.. FUH! Kena bersabar level cikgu music tau!

If you think waiting for someone is the worst ever, try teaching a child who is not at all interested to.

Ahak!

Ok, dah dah. Cukup la nak ngutuk anak =p

Even with this huge pressure, memang dapat tengok anak membesar depan mata is one of the best things ever. Teringat lak dulu nadrah yang tak reti makan ngan tangan, sekarang dah pandai :') 

Dulu kita mandikan, sekarang dia pandai mandi sendiri.

Dulu kita pakaikan baju, sekarang dia pakai sendiri.

Dulu kita boleh suruh dia ambikkan air, sekarang dia suruh kita amik sendiri..... It was all because dia selalu suruh kita amikkan something masa i tengah buat something. I have 2 kids now kot, and only 2 hands! Kekadang tu tengah masak la dia nak kita carikan toy dia. Masa punggung ni baruuuuuuje sentuh kerusi, masa tu la dia suruh kita amikkan biskut.

Mana tak kita sakit hati?

"Nadrah, go take it yourself! Can you stop asking me to do things for you when you can do it yourself?"

I guess it's my fault. Tak cukup kesabaran. Masih tak lepas level ni.

So one day, Nadrah pun mula repeat after me.

"Nadrah, can you pass me the remote please?"

"Ummi, you can take it yourself. Why you always tell me to do this do that"

GAAASSSSSPPPPP!

I told you she's a teenager (in my previous blog post).

Ok ok now back to how wonderful parenting is.

Or should be.

Or would be.

There were times yang i wish i hadn't got kids so soon, astaghfirullah..
Because i haven't really puas travel the world, i haven't really completely followed my dream, and the list goes on.

I bet you moms pun pernah terfikir camni.
Ke i sorang?
Koraaaannnnnngggg T_T

Having travelled with nadrah without my husband, but with my 3 brothers and my mom in 2015, already made such a huge impact on all of us:

Do not travel with toddlers yang takleh duduk diam and cannot listen nor follow instructions.

I couldn't even finish blogging about the whole trip because halfway through our "holiday", everyone was just eager to go back home. So there weren't many nice memories.. Hahahahuhuuuuuwuwuuuu...

Since, we stick to just traveling within our country.

And here's the thing: We have as much fun here as anywhere else! Travel overseas boleh tunggu =')

Our recent trip to Butterfly Park

Forgive my poyo pose! ahahahahaha!! 

This was our recent adventure on the MRT

Kids enjoyed it so much!

Kids below 6 years old get to ride for free, so we went from one station to the end and back. Penat!! tapi best =D

From my 4 years of being a mom & working from home (with Marzea), i just learnt to accept and take it day by day.

A lot of things will be thrown to you new WAHMs, SAHMs.

Or maybe you'll be lucky that nothing will be thrown at you, syukur!

I just learn to accept that: 

1. i cannot live like those people who have financial freedom. 
2. my time will never be as flexible as i thought and wish it could. Kids, business, home heh.
3. my sanity is highly dependent on my kids' behaviour.
4. some people will always think i'm not doing anything other than relaxing at home.
5. some people will think i'm wasting myself, blablabla. ("belajar sampai masters tapi duduk rumah je yada yada yaddaaaa" - some typical remarks i get. serious!)
6. i will never get as much rest as i thought i'd get. 
7. some people actually think i have so much money. I'm being real at this part. I can't afford eating at fancy restaurants, or going out of my area too much, or even go out shopping (i window shop je lebih hehe.. It's a good sport!). It's too costly and i need to be saving money for the house and kid's expenses. Relates to point #1. I am dependent on my husband's income.
8. i can never ever be a perfect mom and i can never ever know if i'm doing this motherhood thing right.
9. i can never go back to the way i planned those years ago. Not the same weight, lifestyle, career.
10. my house will not be squeaky clean for a few more years. Bahahaha!
11. Additional: loneliness can be overwhelming. For a person like me who loved to go out socialising, being a WAHM was really really difficult. Numerous times i felt like slipping into depression because i hardly ever get to meet with friends. Well, 4 years has passed, and i'm still here! So alhamdulillah! There are times when i feel that loneliness creeping in but instead of making it an enemy, i try to embrace loneliness. I try different projects, and do something new. (currently, it's podcasting. More of that soon, inshaAllah!)

It took me a while to reach this state of accepting everything. I still do get hurt when i get tactless remarks for being a WAHM. But i try to brush it off as quickly as i can.

And about wishing i hadn't had kids so soon - well, it happens when i feel sh*tty that day. Biasa la kan! Sometimes it's PMS, sometimes it's the stress, and sometimes it's just because of being so tired.

Most days, i love them to bits and all those dreams, travel the world or doing more stuff i wanna do (when single), those things don't exist.  

It's the day to day achievements that i look forward to =')

To make myself a more productive person, i try and take the 'stress' away bit by bit. One of it was cleaning. Cleaning stresses me out because no matter how many times i clean, the house gets messy in an instant (snaps finger). So we get cleaners to come twice a week. Then my husband's work clothes. I send them to dobi dalam condo kita ni, so that helps a lot (because i really have no time to iron them. They're made of horror, those work clothes!). Husband now likes to buy groceries online, so that saves time and energy for me though some things i still have to get at the supermarket.

So maybe you moms can try to kurangkan la your workload by delegating them to other people. Kids kita still jaga la, but at least we don't waste so much on doing other things.

I am not comparing being a WAHM or SAHM to working moms. Let's just get over that comparing, siapa lagi penat, siapa lagi kesian blablabla. I'm just blogging this from my experience, since i am a WAHM. 

I admire working moms! I had wish that i can go back to working, but maybe not yet. Which is why i made Marzea! (my pencen income)

Being a parent is tough, but we become one anyway.

We enjoy those little and huge moments with our kids.

They fill our boring lives.

They make our life interesting.

They make all our hardwork, sweat and tears seem valuable.

We got this.

#UnitedMomsClub

WAHM = work at home mom

SAHM = stay at home mom

or generally a housewife.

Blue like the ocean

Assalamualaikum earthlings!

i went to Puchong yesterday with my younger brother, Arief.

Arief is an intelligent boy who likes to ask questions and sometimes i get annoyed with his ridiculous questions.
often i just tell him to google it himself since he's always in front of the computer anyway.

but since we were in the car at the time, i couldn't answer him that now could i?

at first he asked me about my job, which i answered patiently.
and then he asked me why the sky is blue.
hmmmm.. quite tough there coz it has been a while since i've been in touch with the science in normal life.
i answered him with the basics.
"coz of the atmospheres la. kan there're layers of atmosphere, so as the light from the sun reaches the earth, the only colour that we see is blue."

"oh ok" he said. in my head i was like "phewwwww!" glad he didn't press on the question coz i really forgot about the physics of it. muahaha! =p

and then he asked me
"then kak ena, why is the ocean blue? when we were on the plane, i saw the ocean being green and brown most of the time. but the picture taken by astronaut of the earth shows that it's blue. why?"

*krik krik*
HOMAGAHHHH!!

AKU TAK TAU NYAH!!

it's true kan? when we're near the sea or flying over it (macam superman), the ocean is not blue as how the picture of the earth is.

c'est interessant, mon petit frere..

i said "i think the astronauts lied. they photoshopped their pictures!! curse them for feeding us with liessss!!". anda, kalau anda percaya saya dramatic macam ni memang nak kena.
haha!

i was just kidding!

i told arief that i don't know. i never thought of the differences of the ocean colours from bird-view and from outerspace view. nyahahaha! so we just made a pact to research on that when we get home.

nak tau the answer? dont care. imma give it anyway. ahak!

1. Some of the sunlight is reflected off the surface of the water, reflecting the colour of the sky 

2. Some of the sunlight penetrates the water and is scattered by ripples and particles in the water (this tinges the appearance of the ocean with the color of the particles). In deep water, much of the sunlight is scattered by the oxygen in the water, and this scatters more of the blue light. 

3. Water absorbs more of the red light in sunlight; the water also enhances the scattering of blue light.

thank you Mr Google! full stuff right >here<

ha amik kau. a 15 year old boy asked a simple question and a 25 year old "engineer" me didn't succeed. hahaha! so what's my point here? i'm no genius! peace. =p

okeh, may i have some chillpopia?
why, yes please-ness!

Green Henley Tunic top from ThePoplook \ Printed shawl i scored for RM 5 at KL vintage festival (so much win!!) \ Jeans from jalan mak joyah \ Vans shoes \ blablabla =p

an unnecessary vain shot of me. bengahahahaha! =p

anyway, today is Mother's day! i know many voiced out that mother's day should be everyday, and to that i agree too, but to have one day where everyone everywhere bersepakat to treat their mothers, i think that is just awesome. but again, mothers should always be celebrated and treated specially everytime =)

aaaaaaaaaaaaannd not forgetting our fathers too! 

Happy Mother's Day to all mothers! 

may Allah SWT bless all of you for being awesome. =D

>Click here for Doa for our parents<

peace.

Maria Elena | Peliks | Shortnap | Greek Helen

Assalamualaikum,

my name is Maria Elena. today, i shall be talking about myself because.. i don't know. i just feel like it.
MAHAABAHAHAA! gelak terabur please. AMARAN! ini post panjang gila. kalau anda ada awesome, anda baca sampai habis. hahaha! =p kidding!

first things first.

"maria, apahat lu pakai itu nama peliks untuk lu punyat bloggerisme?" tanya beberapa orang. 

peliks just came to me when i created this blog (2008, ehem) sebab masa tu 'mariaelena', 'mariaelenaisawesome', 'mariasharapova', 'marsupilami', 'batumarmar' dan sewaktu dengannya dah taken. sedih bangat itu masa, maka i thought, apa satu word yang paling senang mau diingat, senang nak recognise and unique?
OUGGHHH! BEBEH! tapi tu pun taken.
so i thought.... peliks la ini macam. dengan selambanya i typed it out, tengok tengok available! wahhh! manyak how liau!! so that's how my peliks got it's name. brahammaaahahaha! gelak terabur again please.

second things second.

"mariah carey, vhy iz your vizeo chanel (yes, i'm talking about the brand) iz shortnap?"

shortnap was easyyyyy. i ni the kind of person who can take naps easily anytime, anywhere. i can sleep standing up, sitting, in awkward positions, and i sleep comfortably. terror kan? not scary, but hebat. jahaujaahaaa! gelak terabur again lahai.
so masa i nak create my youtube account, again all the names i wanted to use all taken, so i thought...stress la ini macam. i vant to take a short nap la.
OUGHHH!!!! SHORTNAPITIS!!
but that sounded very odd. so i pendekkan to shortnap. myeheuheuhiaaaaauuuuuu! gelak gelak terabur tutup mulut please.

third things third.

"maria, ko nye pesbuk page pahal name maria elena is greek helen?"

ahhh~ itu a bit the long story wannn.
masa tu (2008, and i was 21years old) i tengah kemaruk tengok anime and i masa tu tengah adore gila Belldandy. kenal tak beliau? barangsiapa yang kenal, meh high five sket sebab kita goddess wannabe. hahahahha!!
belldandy is a character in an anime called Oh My Goddess! so yeah.. i wanted to be like her: cantik, lemah lembut, penyabar, and kuat. and so i googled for some greek-ish character i can use for myself and i found Helen, daughter of Zeus. so bajet-ing goddess macam Belldandy punya pasal, i pun guna lah Maria Elena is Greek Helen. coz i bajet-isme. know what i'm sayin' dawg?
namun, hakikatnya i memang takde sifat macam greek goddesses. kasar, gangsta, flying-kickable, and so much more. mostly, i am only human. =')
but oh well, a girl can hope and change is permitted. mana tau one day i'll be in the best form i can be? insyAllah~ =D

fourth things fourth.
i am Maria Elena, the only girl among siblings of 4 and my brothers have implanted in me to be as gangsta as i could for safety reasons. one time, masa taekwondo dulu, Sir pernah buat adegan rogol, and since then i memang PHOBIAAAAAA dengan being too soft. takut men would take advantage of that and i'd be too helpless to defend myself. scary isn't it? and my bros helped me to be gangsta-ish by bullying me and fist-fighting with me as if i was one of them. =\
i am currently working as an engineer di kilang sebelah sana. malas nak pingpongpingpong (normally people would say pumpangpumpang kan? tapi that sounds like kompang to me. haha!) pasal kerja saya sebab nanti nampak macam boasting lak. a lot of people have been asking:
1. engineer apa?
2. kat mana?
3. senang ke?
4. best ke?
5. belajar utp camane? senang ke?
6. kena result camane nak masuk utp?

please see below for the answers:
1. process engineer
2. kat kilang
3. biasa je. keje pape pun ada time senang, ada time tak senang. kalau nak berjaya, kena lah tabah face kesusahan.
4. biasa je. keje pape pun ada best and tak best. kalau nak berjaya, kena lah tabah face it all.
5. belajar utp sama je macam belajar mana mana. cuma it's environment is very conducive and it's terletak kat tempat yang tak senang nak get entertainments. which is good in a way =)
6. i pun not sure sekarang camane. i got my scholarship masa kat matrix on 2nd semester. so i tak gi educamp. after matrix straight masuk utp. sorry... tak dapat nak tolong.. please google it yourself k? jangan malas.

a lot of people have been pressing me about videos too, and to that saya jawab "saya keje dek. kalau saya takde keje, memang saya buat la. kot. sebab kalau ada free time, saya nak belajar masak sebenarnya." means to say, making videos is not my main priority. blogging, to me tak susah sebab i just typeeee je. videos kena edit edit and sebab i sorang je feature in my own videos, it takes double the time to shoot. sadderisme. sometimes i just wish someone can just do all those editting and holding camera stuff for me. myeheeehebeeleheee! gelak terabur keluar hingus please.

i love my family and i try to spend time with them whenever i can. my mom and i sangat close and some weekends, we'll try to go out and do something. mother daughter bonding la =) my family lak memang suka chill ramai ramai. that's why i am close with my cousins, aunt and uncles and grandmothers. love them long timeee! when it comes to friends lak, i ni memang tak reti nak keep in touch through social networking ni. i prefer jumpa lepak. sebab online lepaking is not real enough for me. =p but i do keep my close friends in mind and heart. i may not contact them always, but i always think about them. sweet kan? hahaa! =p

on life matters, i have my principles and disciplines which i stick to. and i definitely realise now that i have no problem admitting my weaknesses to the public. partly because i know i'm not the only going through......life. =) i love traveling (sampai i kena take up part time jobs to support this love of mine) because i get to see Allah SWT's amazing creations and how i always find similarities in some things. i started wearing the hijab after i got back from my first ever eurotrip with my friends! hehe! =)
i saw His Mightiness and i saw His fairness. i fell in love with other countries, but my love for my country and religion deepens and i'm grateful for the experiences.
sometimes we need to compare ourselves with those who have lesser so that we truly appreciate what we have. syukur.. =)

on public attention, fame, popularity, whatever you wanna call it, i honestly don't want to care about it. i do appreciate the many supports and all of you who have been encouraging me, sharing with me, teguring me and being really really cool with me!

YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!! 

but i'm still a pemalu and muka sombong kalau jumpa orang tak kenal. =p

pasal all this modelling and stuff, i admit that i still do it. but only for fun and as a side income. told you i want to travel =p i do try not to go overboard with it. i'd rather be a good role model than a model. know what i mean? haha! i'll try my best la k adik adik =)

from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for supporting me all this while! 

my friends, my family, my readers, my viewers, may Allah swt bless you =)
kalau ada salah silap, buat you terasa ke tercirit ke, buat you rasa nak menampar muka haku ni, buat you termuntah hijau ada sayur sikit ke, sorry sangat sangat..

kalau ada you terserempak ngan i, pastu you thought "eh, maria shmaria ke tu?" pastu bila nak tegur takut sebab muka i macam gangsta, sorry ek.. muka i memang macam tu sebab kata dah.. my bros dah cukup train i baek punya. hahahaa! just tegur je. =)

peace =)

ps: this was a lunch hour post. so excuse my grammatical errors and loss for words moments. and extremely sorry for much poyoness here. just wanna clear things up.

pps: for your information, Asfirdaus Asri (tunang saya) is not a Dato' and not a son of a Dato'. i saje je bagi dia that nickname sebab dulu, dia selalu ada this laugh when talking to his customers (dia buat business dong) which was, to me, very Dato'-ish. kalau korang tengok malay drama yang ada character dato' yang gatal ngan dia punya secretary pastu dia gelak "ehek ehek ehek" konon macam macho la kan, that was the laugh. but now dia dah tak buat dah. hahaha! but still he's a dato' to me. =p <---another thing i have to clear up. so excusez moi ah!

Kuala Lumpur

Assalamualaikum =)

ini pagi i ada sesi bergambar for Women of Malaysia (insyAllah will be featured for February issue) and it was at this awesome place which my noobself and my mom (i had her come with =p) didn't know about.

"apa ini tempat?"

hoooo yeaaahhhh, Perpustakaan Kuala Lumpur. 

i only know National Library, tak aware pun ada library lain.. and this library is the one dekat Dataran Merdeka. CANTIK OKAYYY!! and sooo clean! reminds me of Harry Potter for some reason. nampak sangat i bukan orang KL. ye adik adik kakak abang aunty uncle nenek datuk sekalian, saya orang selangor. peace. mueheheee =p

so after the interview, my mom and i apa lagi, jalan jalan la!! it was such a lovely day for a stroll anyway =D (and because we don't really know what was around that area.. guilty of being kl-noob)

Galeri ni best!

the gallery is small, simple and quaint, and the best part is that it's free! takyah nak bayar entrance fee kejadah. masuk, tengok, tangkap gambau, and... tangkap gambau. kalau ada duit lebih, buy some souvenirs la!

ini memang awesome.

ini juga.

tudung kelepet terbaik. hilang terus effect 'bawal'. tut tut tut.. =\

Arch woodcraft = maximum coolness

after checking out the gallery, kita pun keluar la to get vitamin D. and of course to check more cool things out.

Restoran Warisan! nak masuk but tutup.. sad..

maka i pun buat peace.

ini macam. ahakkk =p

bebehs, you think Rome je ke ada fountain fountain?

pffft! Malaysia pun ada ok! and it's way awesome-r! coz Malaysia memang awesome.

ada gaya macam baru menang olympics tak?

KL at its best. 

clear sky, clear roads, clear dataran merdeka, and me showing off my kungfu skills. terbaik.

setelah puas berjalan, we went to chill la. guess who we met?!

PITBULL!!!! best gila ok Pitbull join kitorang makan tutti frutti. hahahaha!!

kidding la. that's my dad, mentor to Pitbull. unbelievable? don't believe it. hehe! 

by the way, for the interview, Jubahsouq.com was kind enough to lend me their jaw-dropping-eyes-watering-gorgeous jubahs! 

absolutely stunning choices i was given, and with the help of my lovely mother, this was what i wore:

the theme was Beauty of Knowledge, so i thought i want to potray a muslimah yang knowledgeable. hahhaha!

at first wanted to go for "YO, I'M AN ENGINEER DUDE!" look, but then, tak semestinya engineers je yang pandai kan? (if that sounds poyo, sorry!!) that's why i thought of jubah. universal sikit =) i sure am nervous about the outcome of the interview. hopefully it'll be ok.. we'll see la next month camane.

so okay okaaayyyyhh.. i know i'm a kl-noob. when it comes to KL, i think shopping malls and masjid india. kira shopping areas la. i never thought of checking out the original KL buildings from colonial times sebab.. yeah, tak terfikir la kan. takde orang pun ajak "Maria, jom gi jalan jalan kat KL tengok buildings old school!". 

korang memang.

so apa lagi? if you people nak do something different for a change (since shopping malls can be boring), ajak la your friends or family to go around KL and really explore it!

=D

to everyone who's celebrating chinese new year, GONG XI FA CAIIIII!! pili pili pala paaaa~ (lagu pasal mercun). and to those yang balik kampung bercuti, drive safely and have fun!

peace.

Facial expressions you can't ignore

berlalulah sudah ramadhan, sebulan berpuasaa~

last year i didn't give duit raya as i only started working, but alhamdulillah, i've made up this year! my gandmas, aunts, uncles and young cousins were very excited to receive them from me! hehee! we were very joyous on Hari Raya, and i felt like such an adult. especially after giving my parents their duit raya!
mesti my family members rasa lega. for the past 23 years of my life, my family can finally stop giving me money. =p

my family ni gangsta sikit.
i'm the only girl among my siblings, so i am heavily influenced by my brothers.

here i want to clarify,
i don't know how to make that "do i look notty?" or "sebenarnya i nak kata i cute tapi i letak caption "omg buruknya i!! #sadface" so that people would tell me what i already know - i am cute" looks.

kalau i nak buat muka buruk, memang bersungguh sungguh i will memburukkan muka.

muka cute = tak awesome sangat.

muka annoying = awesome.

muka buruk = lagi awesome.

so this 'muka buruk' habit came from my brothers.
perlu i cakap lagi ke?
just see la.

proper pic. the one and only.

warming up.

sort of warmed up.

astaghfirullahalazim..

salam-salaman pun macam-macam gaya. Tokmak sampai excited gila tengok Ike.

so yeah.

thank you, my gigantic brothers!

korang memang awesome =p

though, se-gangsta muka buruk i, muka buruk my bros lagi buruk. 

Maaf Zahir & Batin dari si peliks.

Budak hingusan bajet cool tapi tak cool langsung

years ago, back when OU (One Utama) was still on one wing, i was a cute lanky pengawas from SMKDU. yeah you bettah be proud of me okeyh SMKDU!

anyway, then, on some weekends i would meet up with my friends there and we walk around as if we're cool or something padahal budak hingusan with greasy hair and no sense of style and of course, no DSLRs or cameras. our phones were merely nokia 3310 with polyphonic ringtones. tu pun macam bajet awesome gila.
muahahaha!! kelakar lak reminiscing my old self!

so this one fine Sunday, my friends and i did everything. we went window shopping, watched a movie, we ate, we walked, we laughed, etc etc. we usually take the whole day to chill out. which was weird, now i think about it.. OU was small then.. what da heck did we really do??
hmm..

my mom had to pick me up, usually. (thanks mom!)
and when my mom reaches the taxi stand, where i always have to meet her at, she would call and tell me as annoyed as she could possibly sound
"Ena, mama kat sini dah. cepat!"
"ok jap jap!"
"heishhh! banyak kete la! cepat!!"

with that tone of urgency and annoyance, i would always feel guilty thus i would quickly bid my goodbyes and dash asap to the taxi stand, which is at the end of the world. ok hyperbola. it's far la.

back to this one fine Sunday! after getting The Call, i was at the taxi stand looking for mom's car.
when i found it, i immediately ran towards it, opened the door, sat down, and closed the door.

then i looked at my mom.

except she wasn't my mom.
it was a chinese lady and she looked as confused as i was.

i asked her
"saya salah kereta ah?"
to which she answered with a nod with her brows raised in amazement. i think she was amazed at how i could still stay in her car and asked her a question. i was amazed too!

so i said sorry like a million times while opening the door, climbing out of the car and closed the door.
i hope she got the point. that i was sorry.

so i looked for my mom's ACTUAL car. when spotted, i ran towards it like crazy, with a crazy grin on my face (because laughing in public wasn't cool then), and when i was in the car, my mom was already laughing like crazy!
we both just laughed and laughed about it!

so yeah!

since, i always check the plate numbers before entering a car. or at least get eye contact with someone familiar in the car before i start hijacking god-knows-who's car.


teeeheee!!
peace!

oh ibu

today, in the afternoon, i went to OU with my dear mamadom.
kita pusing-pusing jale-jale cari make, then jale-jale window shopping.

we went into this kedai bernama Promod. oh, did i mention? tengah sale.

--> off topic jap.
of all the words that i like, apart from love, miss, all jiwang ones,
SALE is one of them too.

oh sale.. jangan la stop..

ok. back to the topic!

masuk si Promod tu, well obviously the clothes were on sale, and i got a wee bit excited coz it is by far the best sale as compared to Zara, Topshop, etc. i bought a simple top.
ibu too was excited. she was holding up clothes, putting them against me, and some on herself.
AND THEN
she took a cardigan. it was nice! i liked it but i thought it was too pricy.
ehem.

ma: eh, nice ek dis cardigan!
saya: nice! tapi mahal la ma.
ma: eh, its your size!
saya: i know. apasal ni ma?
ma: nak tak?
saya: eh, takyah la. mahal. ena can just buy online if i want it.
ma: ala, tapi ni material very nice. u can wear it to the movies.
saya: kalau mama nak sangat ena pakai, mama belikan la. ena takde duit.
ma: ok.

pap! she took it to the counter and bought the cardigan for me.

ma: now u have to pay me back.
saya: AMBOI!!! mama yang nak beli for me! apasal kena bayar lak? if i knew u wanted me to pay it back, ena tanak that cardigan!
ma: hey! listen to me! u pay me back by waking up in the morning and doing all the chores i tell u to do. NO QUESTIONS ASKED.
saya: haven't i been doing that?? i always do the chores..
ma: but u don't wake up in the morning. and not all chores u buat.
( i think dia secretly loving this moment. muka dia macam tgh "muahahahhaaha!!" )
saya: .....

ibu saya blackmail saya dengan menggunakan satu kelemahan saya: clothes.

dum dum dummmm~

Cap Ibu dan Anak

hmm.. my mom and my lil bro aren't home today..
it's as if this house is dead.
it's so.. empty!

mana si gemuk yang selalu kat sofa in front of the tv watching cartoons on loud volume?

mana motherku yang selalu on facebook while watching cooking shows on tv in her room yang i selalu chill in?

mana senyuman annoying adikku yang i selalu imitate?

mana suara ma'am besar yang selalu jerit-jerit to us jumbos in the morning suruh wake up and mandi?

mana tangisan arief yang sangat mengikis jiwa when i irritate him like crazy?

mana lempangan hebat mama when i made arief cry?

ibu, arief, take your time kat kota kinabalu please!
gahahahahaa!!
=p

tio-men and tio-women

these are the few pics from our holiday at Pulau Tioman(24 nov 08)

-Ike lompat katak-

on our first ever fishing experience

-arief, muka nak balik-

-Agy, muka buntat-

eating da fish we caught

and yes, they were GOOD

- i am a beach bum.