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Monday, August 21, 2017


So last Friday, i took my kids to the Butterfly Park in KL.

I kept it a secret from my kids, Nadrah especially (Isaac bukannya faham anyway haha) because i know she'll be too excited and then mesti ada something tak kena.
Like what if it rained and we couldn't go. I know she'll be very frustrated.

So kept it hush hush, until.

I picked her up from school, and then the usual battle to get her to finish her food, and i told her
"If you finish your food soon, we can go to the Butterfly Park!"

Habis. Hehehe!

To the Butterfly Park! Andele andele!

We bought fish food for RM 5.
Kesian tengok the fishes fighting for food..

I was mimicking Isaac's expression
Nadrah was "winking" haha!!

This type of butterfly is very friendly!
Boleh pegang (tapi i geli nak pegang =P)

Take 1

(Nadrah, put that thing down)
Take 2!

(Nadrah, properly lah!!!)
Take 3!

(Ah suka hati la!)
Take 4.

Pretty butterfly!

Looks like a rainforest kan.
Tapi kecik je the place. hehee

Sambung mission feeding the fishies

My geli attempt to stroke the butterfly haaha!

Nadrah was braver than me though. Good good.

Nadrah was telling the butterfly to not be afraid of her.
"It's ok little butterfly, i won't hurt you"
then poke it.


Isaac ni penggeli rupanya. 
He didn't want to walk at all because he was geli of the butterflies. 
I had to carry him around!!
Which is why my pictures pun macam borinnngggg~
Taking pics on my huge phone with one hand was quite dangerous. I do NOT want to drop my phone. heheeeee

Went into the exhibition area and FUH!
(We were sweating buckets!)

The kids were enjoying themselves

Eh eh Isaac berzapin pulak

Nadrah took this!
Good! I have a photographer now bahahaha!

Alhamdulillah we got to see everything, because when we got into the car, it started raining!
I thought we were there for like 2 hours.
But we were there for only 1 hour!
30minutes in the butterfly area, and another 30 minutes in the exhibition room and souvenir shop (for the aircon and letting my arms relax).

I only bought butterfly stickers for Nadrah and an Ironman toy for Isaac.

Kat rumah terus stick the butterflies on the wall.
Isaac was taking them off haha!
Nadrah got really angry at him bahahhaa

The reason why i wanted to bring them to Butterfly Park was because..
Nadrah was telling me about butterflies she saw on TV, and she was asking questions and making up stories about how butterflies would go to her and stuff.
It really got me wondering, when did she ever seen beautiful butterflies? Because all we've seen so far are moths hahahaha!

That compelled me into taking both her & isaac to see real beautiful butterflies and see how they really are (not as friendly as we wish. hehehee)

I went to Butterfly park once when i was super young, and in my head, it was HUGE.
But now that i'm all grown up, laaaa kecik rupanya. Hahaha!

For the price of RM 12 for the 3 of us, well, ok la.

Going there on a weekday was part of my plan. Can't imagine how it would have been on a weekend. Parking lagi.. When we went, sikit je orang, so butterflies were really easy to spot!

I would NOT recommend for families with stroller-bound children because there were loads of steps and the walkway isn't smooth. Take note k!

Other than that, it's a good experience and a breath of fresh air for all of us.
Glad that there are places like this for us all to enjoy nature & its beauty =)

Monday, August 14, 2017

KKM for Home Made Products

Before i forget:

I punya la gigih nya nak dapat kan KKM for my products.
It's all natural, but still, some people are not convinced... T_T
Gais, i don't work with harmful stuff..

So if you're an entrepreneur and doing your own products (and i'm talking about cosmetic/health products), and wondering:
Should i get KKM approval for this?

The answer is:

If it's homemade, they won't comply.
If you have your own factory (or something like a factory.. production place la), then you need to get GMP cert for the place, baru boleh apply KKM.

Kalau orang mintak jugak, bagi your certificate of analysis for your products. Hehe!

Sama kes macam orang buat bisnes jual makanan. They don't have Halal/Jakim sign, but you know it's halal anyway kan.
So yeah.

Sabo je la..
I siap beli "token" diorang, dah install itu ini, isi all the long forms, and in the end, nothing even matterssss~~
I tried so hard
 and got so far,
but in the end
it doesn't even matter
I had to fall
to lose it all
but in the end
it doesn't even matter
- Linkin Park, In the end

Buttttt, just in case you're not convinced, please do go ahead. 
I've contacted them, and wasn't quite clear, pastu they called me back and kind of "schooled" me.

Hope this helps!
(Don't waste your money and time yet).

Viral punya kes


Sekarang ni semua benda nak viral. 
Skandal retis sana sini, drama rumahtangga orang, singers and comedians on instagram, even demam!

Nadrah & isaac dah berapa kali kena demam viral ni -_-"

Today nadrah tengah demam actually. Kesian dia...

Anyway, today punya viral activity for me was:
Beli pinggan mangkuk kat central market. 
Bahahhaa terjebak jua. So i went with mah kids and mah mazer!

Tapi i memang minat all this kind of mismatched table settings, bowls and mugs with personality kinda thing cuma biasanya semua macam mahal and they come in a set. I nak loose loose je kan. Mugs are an exception la. 
Despite the fact that it is unhealthy to eat on the printed parts (due to plumbum or something tak ingat. Viral jugak kes nya), tapi i just wanna have it anyway. Pepandai la pakai camane nanti. Maybe put tissue and then letak makanan goreng goreng kan? 

So i only got this basket full of stuff. There was a sale last weekend and obviously i missed it, but i didn't expect the aunty cashier to still give the discounts to us! Yay!

Yang basket belah kanan tu my mom's stash. 

That's our trolley bag utk angkut all this stuff. 

I got some bowls, big and small, couple of spoons, small petri dish kinda size untuk letak sambal belacan konon, and an oval plate. The small bowls yang i intended to use for soups or eat nasi jepun, i chose yang takde prints kat dalam. Heheee!

All in all, i spent RM 74! Happy la but tak puas sebab tak dapat plates, teapot and mugs behehee..

So the aunty said next stock will be on 20th and told me to check febok. 


She pointed to a piece of paper. 

Ooohhhh facebook! Haha! Ok! Nanti kita check febok la. 
Thanks aunty!

So you guys nak pi sana, check febok dulu k?

Just took this picture sebab i rasa cart dia very homey. Hehehe! Good job la bang decor guna pokok!

Can't wait to use them bowls nowwww!
Nak masak nasi, salmon teriyaki and sayur masak garlic la woooooot!

Monday, July 24, 2017

Am i raising a teenager?


I have no idea what is happening to my daughter.
She'll turn 4 this november.
But seriously.

Nadrah, are you secretly 14 years old?!

You know how teenagers, even us as teenagers (whadde i sound old denngiitt), we used to change clothes so many times because we couldn't find the right "match". So we keep changing and changing, and our clothes just kinda piles up all over the place.


I know you did that too! Jangan nak deny ekkkkkk!
Lebih lebih lagi bila nak keluar past crush pun ada bahahahahaha kantoi busuk korang.
Ok tanak ungkit kisah lama =p

Nadrah ni macam tu.
She keeps on changing her clothes, and then leaving a trail of clothes all over the house and I have to tell her off to pick up her clothes and put them in the closet.
While some clothes she did put in the closet, some she just throw into the laundry basket.



And then not just that.
When i tell her "Nadrah, do this this this that!"
She can look at me, cross her arms and tap her feet, LIKE A TEENAGER, and sighs before doing as she was told!
Sometimes, she has the audacity to answer me back "Ye la ummi! I will, i will! Ish!"



And there were times when i don't let her have something, like chocolate, and she can answer me back tau takkk!

"Why i always don't get what i want!"

Then i'll say "ok, if you want to have rotten teeth, then fine!"

And she'll ANSWER BACK!
She always have some kind of retort sampai i rasa nak nangis sebab penat nak kena menjawab la, pastu dengan isaac lagi, pastu dengan kerja lagi.
It's really really like fighting a teenager.

Usually when i'm too tired to answer back, i'll just keep quiet and ignore her.
But she will pester me, annoy me, disturb me until i break.

So my dear Nadrah, when you've grown up, and are reading this, i hope you know that as much as i love you, you can really really hurt me like nobody's business.
When the time comes, i hope you will never ever make me sakit hati again. Ummi kekadang rasa syukur sangat sebab boleh bersabar lagi.
And i hope and pray that i can be patient sampai hujung nyawa.

Isaac please jangan lah macam ni jugak please!!!

Pengsan ummi nanti X_X

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

Family vs Friends vs What i Really Want to Do


Huuhhhh... It has been a while since i last blogged.
I tried blogging more often, but somehow i couldn't get the time to sit and type away relaxedly.
I'd rather just be with my kids and do whatever i need to with them, because whenever they see me at the computer, they'd do anything to make it stressful for me bahahhaahaaa!

And then there's that.
Family vs Friends vs What I Really Want To Do.

A few days ago on June 9th 2017, a dear friend of mine, Shea Rasol, has passed on.. It was heart breaking..

Last year, at our regular yearly preloved ramadhan sale, she told me she had stabbing pains in her stomach area and back then, she suspected it was batu karang. Then after a few weeks, i texted her asking how she was doing and that was when she told me she was diagnosed with cancer. She had urachal cancer, a rare type..
Of course i was devastated..

The last time i saw her was actually at that preloved sale last year. *cries*

I kept asking if i could go meet her but because of her chemotherapy, and then her health & strength was sliding, i knew she wasn't looking for time to lepak. She was using her time to get closer to Allah and i completely respect that.

But then, still.. I feel so guilty.. For not texting her more and MAKE her see me. Haha!
Do you know that one person (or many, idk) yang macam tak kisah orang tu kisah ke tak, aku nak jumpa aku jumpa gak. <- this person don't live with regrets and i admire this kind of person.

Now nak regret pun buat apa kan.. Tapi at least i am glad that i did do something for her. I gave her a "Comfort Kit" which were Typo stuff: bantal, notebook & a heart badge because that's her brand. Her sister told me that she used the bantal so that made me feel a little less guilty. I do wish i did see her though when she was healthier. Macam takde rezeki sebab bila pergi hantar the comfort kit, she wasn't home.. Oh well.
I went to see her everyday since she was admitted in the hospital after we got the message that she collapsed. I had to leave my kids with hubs and sometimes my mom when i went and itupun boleh buat i rasa guilty for my kids and my mom..

And on the day of her passing, i missed her by a few minutes je.. My husband drove me to the hospital with the kids, and when i got the news, sebab dah dalam kereta and dah gerak dah, so tak dapat nak patah balik..
So macam sedih gila. I never cried so hard for many days, for so long..

However, mashaAllah, subhanallah, alhamdulillah.. She was loved by so many that on the day of her perkebumian, the masjid was filled with people praying for her! Made me feel so awed that this person is actually a friend of mine and i felt soooo honoured and grateful to know such a person. Allah truly has chosen someone super special, that she left in the holiest month and on a Friday, and gave her time to repent and get closer to Him. =')

May Allah accepts all her good deeds, erased her sins and elevates her rank in the Heavens, inshaAllah.. Al fatihah for arwah Farah Syahirah..

You are sorely missed.

At the state she was in when i saw her, i felt angry at myself.

Kenapa i had to see her in this circumstance? Kenapa masa masa macam ni baru dapat jumpa my friends? Kenapa i tak just do what i want to do, regardless how my kids are? Kenapa i keep making my family like my barrier from doing things i want, going wherever i want and meeting people i care about?

I deeply love my family, yes, but i love my sanity too. And i thought i've been doing what i've wanted all this while, but when this happened, i realised that i haven't done anything out of my comfort zone since i had my kids.
Nadrah & Isaac can be a handful when we're in public places. They somehow can drain my mental and physical energy in 30minutes when we're out. Sebab i ni memang selalu alone with the kids doing grocery shopping, or whatever, kadang kadang masa tengah makan ke, tengah shopping ke, tengah something la, dan dan je masa tu nadrah nak shishi, pastu isaac terberak. Pastu kita berlari lari ke tandas =')

I always have to be stern with nadrah because she likes to run around, so imagine kalau bawak kenduri kawen or majlis, aduih.. poning den. And when she throws tantrums, it's like dunia ni dah tonggang terbalik. Isaac lak dah start tanak duduk diam. So rather than going through all this kerenah, sakit hati, sakit mental dan sakit jiwa raga, i just avoid going to gatherings and stuff especially if i need to bring the kids along, which is like yeah: All. The. Time.
Housewife/StayAtHomeMom/WorkAtHomeMom camtu la gayanya. For me la.

If i can go cuckoo with my own kids, i can't imagine how they drive my mom craycray too. That's why i feel guilty whenever i had to leave them with me madre..

I remember how that one day, we were eating at a restaurant, and our kids were going all out tantrum: nadrah nak something, tak dapat, then nangis. We gave in to her to make her quiet but she still went at it. Isaac lak tak sedap duduk, nak jalan, letak dalam baby chair mengamuk, bila dukung, dia tolak tolak ("kang aku lepas, jatuh, nangis. aku kena marah suami lak.. aduduuhhh"), and then i don't remember who, one of them just pushed a cup and habis tumpah air pastu orang macam "*inhaled* huuuhhhh!".
And hubs and i looked around, and we both macam "kenapa budak budak lain sume okay je? Boleh duduk diam, makan tertib, relax?".
Then we looked at our kids and the mess they made.

At that moment, i remember, i really really felt drained and held back my tears.
Baru 4 years being a parent and i have tried so many "tips & tricks" on how to handle kids and nurture them and still, i feel like nothing worked.

Now that i've lost 2 friends, i know i need to change something.

I need a nanny.

Ok tak la. Haha! I need to buck up and just face it with the kids. Whether they drive me crazy, breaking my back and shoulders, i need to stop making them an excuse to not do things i want.
I don't know how yet and i need to figure that out.
I do not want to regret the missed opportunities.

If you have some kind of same experience as me, please do share your tips & tricks kot kot maybe i tak try lagi ke... Or like share your advices on how you manage your (hyper?) kids when you guys are out in public places?
Or maybe since it's zaman technology, instead of going to places, i should bring places to me? Using facetime or skype or whatever? Tetiba bagi idea kat diri sendiri bahahahaha!
In all seriousness, if you have any advice on not missing out while being an acting-single-parent, please do share.

I love my children. I love my children. I love my children.
I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.

.... i love me too, and my families, and my friends, and all you readers...

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Website builder: Wix vs Weebly vs Squarespace vs Shopify vs Avana Asia (Malaysia based)

Ha amik kau.

Ok, so here's an intro.
I recently just started my new business, (selling shawls and hair growth oil. yaaasss!), and due to budget constraint, i could not hire a website developer and instead tried making my own.

Hence, ze title!

Now, first things first,
I AM NOT A TECHY! I repeat, not a techy, not good at all this coding whatever so don't come commenting and telling me i should get on Wordpress. I slap yo face. Haha =p

Website builders are not free. Sure, some may offer free trial for you to try and see whether the program suits your taste and ability.

Because i am not some techy person with unlimited money, i had tried them and here, i am going to share my views on them. Whether you agree or not, that's up to you. You can further your research k! =)

So maybe some of you are like "What is a website builder?". It's basically a self-service website where we can create our own website, using the tools in their program, and voila! No need to use coding whatshiznot.

1. WIX

For Wix, i find that it's quite easy to navigate, understand and create a website. They have nice themes too! Cost wise, i think it's ok la. Not that expensive.

Price wise:

Pricing for WIX

These are some of the themes for the online stores. Their themes are mostly clean, sophisticated and simple.

Good thing about Wix is, for a noob, memang senang nak catch up how to use the editor. All we need to do is drag and drop whatever elements we want on the website. It's also mobile friendly, which means we can also edit the website for phone's POV. Cool kan?

This is how the editing page looks like. On the left sidebar is all the elements we can add/move on the web, and the right sidebar is all the details to edit the elements. Pretty straight forward.

So as you can see from the price, they're in USD, so kena times 4.43. We can use the website for free but of course there will be wix ads everywhere and limited things we can use. Also, the website url is kinda ugly (if you're not getting a domain la). It's like
To me, it's menyusahkan la kalau nak orang shop at your page, but the url is not easy to remember.

The ecommerce plan was what i was going for, but KIV dulu. Cuba website builder lain.


It has a somewhat same concept as Wix, but it's a bit different in the way we get to edit our website. You can see my trial one here: (at least the url is not as ugly at wix's! Hehe!). It's a bit more complicated when trying to sort the pages, coz, obviously we'll be having pages kan. Like a page for shawls, a page for clothes, etc. There's no drop-down categories too.

Price wise:
There's more scrolling down on the page though. You can check them out here (and find the plans page).

So for businesses, it's $25 a month if you're signing up for a year. You can opt for monthly plans, but it'll be $35 kalau tak salah.

Just like Wix, their themes are clean, simple and cool.

This is how the editing page looks like. It is full of elements on the left sidebar, but it's a bit confusing to use. 

BUT!! What turned me off immediately about Weebly, is the payment when customer checkout.
They have only these 3 options! 
At least Wix has a manual payment option..

Squarespace is really WOW. I mean the templates and themes.
Very sleek, chic and super clean. 

I was excited to try out their templates.
They give 14days free trial. But my problem with it is that it's not as user-friendly as both Wix and Weebly. It's not as responsive either. Most of the time i had no idea what i was doing and why whatever i was doing did not appear. Haha! For noobies like me, i think this'll require loads of patience.

Price wise:

Quite pricey like Weebly if opting for the basic business plan.

See, this is the editing page and there isn't like a proper navigation. No drag and drop kinda thing here. It has "Demo" (which doesn't explain much though). 

Because i have no patience and it's too pricey for me, i tried the next one.


But for the sake of comparison, cuba la the 14days trial.

So they have free themes, and also paid ones.
Obviously i tried the free one la. Heheee.. Even free, they're nice! 

It's quite easy and straight forward to edit the website. Perhaps diorang dah pro sangat pasal online businesses, they just know what we need, so there isn't much editing needed.

I think because Shopify is specifically for businesses, so they have all the tools we need, like demographics of customers, their behaviours, and also reports on which campaign works and stuff. It's very focused. If it wasn't so expensive, this would be my choice!

Alas...... T_T

Bukak page terus nampak muka Ameera Zaini, mana tak tergugat jantung? Hehehe!!
They give 30days free trial, which i tried first obvs.

Price wise:
See more here

This part here where i just stopped and stared. They can automate Facebook selling instead of us penat penat buat sendiri.
I think the Business plan is suitable for those yang betul betul nak blast brand and have high budget.
The beginner may not have the facebook blast thing, but it works on facebook too.

Theme and templates are pretty basic. Not as sophisticated as SQUARESPACE fo sho. And not editable like Wix, Weebly, Squarespace and Shopify. They don't have multiple pages for products, and instead it's a drop-down category (which is not entirely editable too).

Banyak nye Meeraaaaaa! Hehe!

Very simple theme but hey, it works for me! Hehe

Now i think Avana's strength is in its integration with Facebook.

This is Marzea's FB page, and you can even shop there!

You can even click on individual pictures oh the "Photos", and just type "pm" and you'll get an automated response.
Cool innit?

In case you're wondering, i took the Beginner's Plan (coz i don't really need the Facebook full blast actions, yet). And then i topped up RM 60 for the domain.

In terms of administrative stuff, it's pretty basic and ok la. Nothing much, so not much to complain too. Although, i do wish we could personalise the messages to send to customers when payment is pending ke, processing, and shipped. Avana doesn't provide that. Actually i think all of them don't have this...? Tak tau la sebab tak cuba lak! 

Overall, Wix & Weebly have clearer editing tools for the website, Squarespace is good for people who goes for aesthetic value, Shopify is complete business website but too expensive for me, and Avana has facebook in its pockets.

ANYWAYS, i would've opted for Shopify for the complete business overview and simplicity in editing the website, but it cost too much.. Wix was a second go, but when convert to RM, it's more expensive than Avana.
And i saw some reviews online that Wix doesn't completely get rid of their ads even when people have upgraded their plan. 

You guys can check out this blog for more intensive review on the website builders k!

And of course, if you have a big budget, you can always hire a website developer! 

Ok i guess that's it!
I hope this is helpful in any way!
All the best ya you guys yang nak start your businesses!
Hope you all can support mine =)