sakitnya dahiku~

i was praying tadi.

then i remembered an incident (kantoi tak kusyuk) which almost made me laugh. but obviously i didnt. haha!

i have young cousins despite most of us are being in our 20s.

years ago, as i recalled, it was Raya and we were in Muar.

and my uncle called out for all of us to pray Maghrib berjemaah.

so the men in their kain sarungs, and the girls in telekungs.

my little cousin, named laura, was wearing a really cute telekung. ada strawberries and something else. tak ingat, but it was cute la.

so as we were praying in the cramped living room together in unison, it was sujud time.

from rukuk position, to sujud position,

si Laura ni,

excited ke apa, i also dunno

she knocked her head so hard on the floor (we all heard the knock. a loud "DOK")

silence.

then, came a soft cry. the kind of cry yang sayu~ kesian~ sakitnya dahiku tapi kena semayang, kalau tak papa marah~ kinda cry. aduh!

i had to force my laugh back! we were praying!

sampai nangis2 tahan! macam2 i buat. gigit the insides of my cheeks, suck in my cheeks, relax, count till 10.. until i couldnt take it any longer, i pulled myself out of the jemaah, went back to the guest room, and laughed and laughed. and laughed.

dah puas laughing, then i prayed maghrib myself and join the others for doa.

rupanya my other cousins also had the urge to laugh out loud but well, they were stronger than me.

ahahaha!!

comel.

=P

PhD

Perasaan Hasad Dengki.

it has been said, malays ni, PHD tinggi.
and being a malay myself, i dont deny that (im not saying i have PHD tinggi, please). but because i do know people who have this jijikness.

my parents have taught us well to not have ill feelings to those who have more.
wealth, babes, cars, games, cash, watever la.

they taught us to channel those feelings to jealousy towards admiration.

yes, im jealous of those sportsmen yang get millions and millions of Dollars just by playing a sport that they like. but i takde la wish they should mati awal coz of that.
as jealous as i am, i admire them, for being able to stick to what they like for so long. to perform at every game they played, to satisfy their fans, to bring honour to their country, etc etc. i know i couldnt do that.

semua orang ada rezeki. its just in different aspects.
some in wealth.
some in health.
some in education.
some in love.
some in looks.
some get sooner.
some get later.

so why do you have to question whether orang tu punya wealth is from cara yang halal? tak semestinya semua orang kaya dapat duit from cara yang tak betul. you think you sorang dalam dunia ni yang baik?
why do you have to find flaws on someone who is handsome/beautiful? they have good genes, nasib la kan.
why do you have to kutuk orang yang pakai clothes or bags yang branded, or bawak kereta, or duduk kl? diorang dah berharta, suka hati diorang la.
if they're the type yang bawak kete besar, then tayang kat satu dunia, like "weh, i nak gi mamak bawak kete bmw." or "i pakai baju polo original ni. dont touch please". tu memang niat nak show off. so agak takleh blah, but then if that's the way they are, kutuk sbb poyo la. takyah kutuk sebab dia kaya. kan?
rezeki dia, jangan question.
attitude tu, boleh la.

heheheee...

but you get what im saying kan.

we always have to wish for the best for people and ourselves. when you see those who are well off, never had to lift a finger to get what they want, then good for them. but we all know for a fact, sesenang mana orang tu, mesti ada susah gak. maybe dia tak smart, maybe dia kaki bengkok. who knows kan. and vice versa. sesusah mana orang tu, ada gak kesenangan dia. maybe dia ilmu banyak, maybe dia healthy. you get the gist.

when people ask for help, you give as much as u can when u see fit.

my parents are going for Haj.
Alhamdulillah.
so to my family (of my dad's side, if you're reading this, which i doubt) doa untuk kebaikan and bersyukur diorang dapat the opportunity.
i wish you all would stop with what you're doing to my family, especially to my abah.

peace.

studios semartos!

Kita selalu ingat,

dunia ni, ramai orang jahat.

kita jadi takut.

tapi sebenarnya,

dunia ni, ramai lagi orang baik.

so berani kan lah diri,

dan tanya bila tak tau.

=)

Good Luck for FINALS!

ps: jom belajar bersama!

hell gila

before FYDP presentation & report submission:

all i want,

is peace + laughter + joy + adventure

to remind me

that life exists for chemical engineering students.

after FYDP presentation & report submission:

all i want

is dc++ + sleep

=)

simply awesome.

Kuroshio Sea - 2nd largest aquarium tank in the world - (song is Please don't go by Barcelona) from Jon Rawlinson on Vimeo.

makes you fall in love with nature and its wonders, and realise how beautiful this world is.

Allahuakbar.

it's sad

when people you know become people you knew.

how you can walk right past them, as if they have never been a part of your life.

how you used to be able to talk for hours, and now you can even barely look at them.

sad, init.

Note:

- no 1. is not encouraged in open public areas, i.e. lorong blakang kedai, pasar malam, public toilets, dark scary lonely roads, for it will be misinterpreted by strangers who are morons.

to act on no 1, it is advisable to be in a large group, or with a male company/ies (for girls).

- no 2. does not mean literally slowing down. especially when driving.

Have a lovely day loves!

=)