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Monday, March 23, 2015

story of hajar

assalamualaikum~

kom apa, kombaaaat~~

sambung sendiri sampai pusing balik kat assalamualaikum ya. hehe!

so, today agak busy. i had to run some errands and then tadi i helped Hajar, syrian refugee yang buat Tudung Mutia by taking her to the UN centre in PJ because she wanted to buy insurance for her mother.

i never had the opportunity to really really talk to her.
the first time i met her, her english wasn't so good so we both kinda had trouble communicating and since she had very little vocab, we spoke little and watch the kids play when we had that awkward silence moments.

now alhamdulillah, after months of talking to her, and she also had talked to a lot of people, her english is way better and just now, i was able to understand her real story.
hurray!
haha =p

rupanya, Hajar ni my age! and she has 3 kids already! masha Allah, all strong boys lak tu =)
the eldest is 9, and the youngest is 3. ke 4? lupa lak =p

i thought she's a syrian, turns out, she's from Iraq. she was born and raised in iraq.
she said, when saddam was there, it was peaceful. "everyone is like brothers" she said.
and when saddam was gone, the syiah wanted to take over the country, by annihilating the sunnis. sounds kasar kan? but it's the truth.

she said her brother was killed because his name was suffian (not sure the spelling though) and because his neighbours told the 'people' that he was a sunni. she said he was captured 5 times, but alhamdulillah he was released. they had to pay the 'people' to get him released..
but the last time, unfortunately, they did not want any money. they just want blood. Hajar and her family found his body in a river.

"alhamdulillah we found the body. some people don't find the body. so i pray to Allah, if they want to take his life, then fine, but let us find his body." she said.

it was kind of hard to share my feelings with her. to be honest, i felt like hugging her and tell her i'm really sorry for all the pain she and her family had to go through. but seeing her being composed, i had to hold back. she's so strong!

she kept saying "alhamdulillah", "subhanallah" as she was telling me her life story. eventhough i write a lot of subhanallah, alhamdulillah, mashaAllah and stuff, it sounds awkward saying it. i don't know why, but when i do want to say it, it'll come out as a whisper. like i'm saying it to myself.

"i saw the most beautiful flower in the garden just now! subhanallah *whisper*" <-- me.

anyway.

so when iraq wasn't safe for them anymore, she said going out of the house could get them killed, they fled to syria.

she and her family stayed in syria for 3 years.
she said, at first, syria was the best. it's a nice place, people there are kind. and then, the syiah took over. she said syria became worse than iraq. the planes would come and drop bombs at houses.
she said they couldn't take it, so when they went to 'them' (not sure who), they told her that they'll be sending her and her family to malaysia.

since there was no internet in syria then, she only assumed what our country would be like. so they all packed their winter clothings, and came to malaysia. at this point, we were laughing =p

she said when they reached KL, it was raining. "in our country, it only rains in winter. so i thought i did not bring enough winter clothes!" she said.

ehehehe!

she said in iraq and syria, when it's hot, it doesn't rain at all. only rains in winter. so subhanallah, we have hot and wet in one season!
=') it's a blessing really!

so when we reached UNHCR, ok, i was completely wrong. i thought the UN would be like a welcoming place. you know, with opened gates, sort of like a hospital, but caters to help refugees and stuff..

NOPE. completely NOPE.
it was like a prison! the gates were closed, people wait outside of the gates because they can't get in. because the security was kind of entahpape.
serious rasa nak sepuk je mamat tu. hmph!

Hajar called the person she called earlier to help her get in. and then the guy showed up and told the security guard to let us in.
we got in, and from the inside, it's like walking through imigresen yang scary. we got in some more, and there were offices left, right, front and center. hajar said they all have to pass all of the interviews in order to be able to stay here.
if you don't pass, you have to repeat.
until you have a UN card.
it takes a whole day, she said. so if they were called for an interview, they'd have to pack food for the kids, and bring drinks.
"oh, so you all have picnic inside here!" i said. awkward laughs..

-__-"

turns out, the insurance guy went back already. on the door, it says that opening hours was from 9am to 4pm, and it wasn't even 4!
so all that effort to go there, wasted.
the guy who got us in told hajar to come in some other time. it was a good thing that he was very polite. kalau tak.. memang aku naik amok kat situ. haahaha! (yeah right.)

what to do..
we went back to her place. on the way there, we talked about her other work. other than sewing, she cooks really well! she can do cooking classes, and even catering.
kalau nak tau lebih lanjut, if you want to know more, check it out here:


she made this kuah hijau thing with almond, and i, who wasn't a fan of all this hummus kinda thing, fell in love with it. dapat 2 balang tadi! happy sangat!

i asked her how did she learn cooking.
"my mother was going blind, but slowly. so she tells me what to do in kitchen." she said. and she started since she was 12. i dulu pun tolong masak kat dapur, tapi sehapak pun tak ingat.. wahahaha boooo!

so that's what her insurance was for. her mother needs to do eye surgery coz the doctor said she's got cataract. they can't afford the surgery. so yeah.

"you are very strong" i told her.
"ah well. we refugees. our psychology is different because we are refugees. we run here and there." she said.
i think she meant that being a refugee, they have to be strong. they don't think about living lavishly, about clothes, or cars, any of that stuff. they just think of surviving.

she's hoping to get her turn to go to canada. just like this other family in shah alam. they're all looking forward to go there because they can really live there. they can go to school there, work properly, get a driver's license, etc.
being in malaysia is good and all for them, because it's a muslim country. everything is halal, people are nice, but there are restrictions for the refugees. so i pray too, that they'll be able to live a normal life soon, in sha Allah.

for now while they are here, i hope to be able to help them as much as i can.

ps: i might have gotten some info wrong. sorry, sebab kekadang tak terpaham dia kata apa heeee.. 

Monday, March 2, 2015

Getaway

Assalamualaikum~


It was a few days before chinese new year's holiday when mom, my aunt, nadrah and i went to Terengganu for a bit of a getaway.

My mom's got a friend who owns a B&B (bed and breakfast) inn at Kijal called Kijalena.
It has been so long since i've been to the beach, so i was so happy that my mom asked me if i wanted to join. OF COURSE MA, YES! AKU NAK TENANGKAN MATA SIKIT NI HA!
masa tu i was macam serabut sikit, sebab...
takdeideanaktulisapauntukbukumuahahahaha

and i thought, it could be a good learning experience for nadrah. hehee =)

of course, a few hours of being in the car was boring for nadrah and the car seat was just crampin' her style. haha!

alhamdulillah we reached our destination and when i laid eyes on the view from the B&B, SUBAHANALLAH!

ok the picture wasn't doing the view any justice, and that fishing pole, well. perhiasan. haha!

seriously, it was so refreshing!
the air was calm, the water was beautiful - i could see the blue part and the green part, and it was in a kampung area, so it wasn't busy at all. it was just us and nature. =')

the moment we stepped out of the car, nadrah saw the swimming pool and immediately she wanted to swim.
she kept looking at the pool, and said "cim, cim" which means, swim, swim. -_-'

she got what she wanted. we went swimming.
the best thing about this B&B, is that the whole household is so unique. i pun tak reti nak explain. but the pool area, memang banyak tempat lepak. so while nadrah and i were swimming, my mom, aunty shikin (my aunt) and aunty nina (the owner of Kijalena) were chilling by the poolside. 

in case y'alls were wondering, this is where we stayed. this is the chalet, 3 rooms, each has its own toilet, there's wifi too. so donch worri. =)
the owners live in a house opposite of the chalet (in the same compound of course) with their family. they're all super nice!

so yeah! nice kan? =D
after swimming, nadrah and i went exploring.
oh ya, nadrah got a toy horse from aunty nina. because there was an actual horse in their compound.

jeng jengggg!
his name was something like cavalli? roberto cavalli? eh tu nama kain.
something like that la. hehe!

it's not their horse, but they're looking after it for a friend. 
so the orang kampung suka betul tengok the horse. they would stop their motorcycles and watch the horse eat or whatever secara berjemaah. hehe!
i would love to chill with the horse, but nadrah was between scared and amazed at it. she's like that with everything actually. wahaha!
she extends her hand to touch it, and the second i put her close enough to it, she withdraws her hand and lean back. takut.
ceit. there was a monkey too, and a guard dog (we didn't go near it. takut. haha!)

so now she knows what "hosh" and "angki" looks like in real life. good girl! 

then we went to the beach, and nadrah was so squirmish that i got so uncomfortable. her squirms made my tudung go everywhere. i was so worried my tudung would flip and fly or something. haha!
good thing there was a log, and we sat there. so nadrah can see the sand but they're not in contact. 
the sand was "geyi" to her! (geyi = geli)
hahahaa!

good thing she didn't want to "cim" in the sea. gila apa?!
nadrah fefeeling kew tewwww~
=p

baby, tak ponek lagi ke?
ummi dah pancit gilos ok...

memandangkan it's a B&B inn, not a hotel, so we had to look for dinner ourselves. not to worry! they have a pasar malam on monday nights, and mesra mall is just about 15minutes drive. it's all good!

that night was a monday night, and we all enjoyed eating our nasi kerabu and keropok lekor yang sedap gilos and tak berminyak. rindu pulak!

the next day, we went to kuala terengganu, which was seriously far than i thought, and got ourselves some keropok, keropok lekor and.. budu and all sorts la! we bought them all at the pasar payung.
after shopping, we went to the masjid terapung and that's where nadrah saw fishies chasing after food.
the fishes we're used to seeing are the ones in aquariam. so, no kejar-kejar la.
she got so excited everytime the fishes goes after the food she threw in.
kept repeating "pish, pish, pish, pish" sambil bagi ikan makan, sambil tengok my face, sambil tengok my mom's face. hahaha!

alhamdulillah =)
cantik masjid ni!

when we got back to Kijalena, of course nadrah wanted to swim.
but not after we chill at the beach jap ye sayang!
ololoooo~ so gadis melayu terakhir! hehehee!

tokmom, stopped taking pictures and get me a drink! - said nadrah.
=p

=')

we went swimming shortly after (since nadrah insisted), but we swam for like, less than 30minutes i think? 15 minutes like that coz nadrah got tired and she wanted the keropok the aunties were eating at the pool side.

that night, we went to mesra mall for dinner =)
mesra mall tu ok la gak, banyak kids. nadrah loves seeing kids so she was happy.
there was this girl around her age, and she was so sweet! kissing nadrah and smiling a lot. nadrah even played with a kakak who wasn't even playing with her! hahahaha! kelakar tengok!
and then there was this exercise machines display at the concourse, and the kids just took over the place. they were playing with the shake-lemak thingy and the treadmill. 

reminds me of my childhood. hehe!

we headed for home the next day after breakfast. 

my mom actually intended for me to get the writer's block out of me, but i got so tired coz nadrah.. was being like any other toddler yang 'nak kenal dunia'. 

i wasn't inspired to write after the trip, but i was inspired by the beauty of the sea. 
i felt so at peace when i look at the beach. 
all of my senses were remembering everything.
i've been holding on to too much of metal that i almost forgot what sand felt like. my eyes were used to looking at screens - tv screen, laptop, phone - that i almost forgot the colours of the sea water. my ears were so used to hearing noise, that i forgot what calm sounds like.
it was amazing.

i felt truly blessed that Allah allowed me to come here. it was a wake up call! 
i thought, Allah's creation is this beautiful, then Allah must be..Wow. the creation is nothing like the Creator, right?
subhanallah. subhanallah. glorified is Allah. glorified is Allah. =')

so, if you're interested to stay at this place, here's their contact number!


thank you ma =)
i love you so much.

thank you and all praise to Allah for this rezeki =)






Saturday, July 27, 2013

the guessing game

assalamualaikum!

at this stage of pregnancy, people have been asking me about the gender of the baby.
been to the doctor last month.
due to the paranormal activity of the baby, we both thought it's safer to just not confirm anything yet.

and i tell ya, ramai gila orang yang bagi assumption on the gender.
ada kata laki, ada kata pompuan.

some said coz of the way i am (malas nak melawa, anti social, suka makan benda manis) it must be a boy!
then i met some that said coz of the way i am (malas nak melawa, anti social, suka makan benda manis) it must be a girl!
"oh perut besar ke tepi. it's a girl"
"oh perut tak nampak. it's a boy"
macam macam!!

it's so confusing at first, because mostly yang i take seriously are women who has kids already, but now i just enjoy hearing them guess the gender.

dah jadi game dah! 'Guess the Baby's Gender'! winner will get bragging rights and allowed to say "dah agak dah!" sampai baby dah beso. haha!

everyone's pregnancy is different.
i have friends and family who were pregnant, and their symptoms of having a girl or boy aren't the same!

example - my cousin was so into sweet stuff when she was pregnant, she puts extra effort when dressing up, thought she's carrying a boy, bila keluar je, baby girl.

i have a friend yang gila selekeh masa pregnant, don't wanna see anyone and even when she had to, she'll only 'tunjuk muka' and leave asap. she gave birth to a baby girl.

paling best is, ada sorang tu bila dah scan found that the baby's a girl, but bila keluar je, it's a boy!

so i say, biar la dia nak laki ke pompuan. Allah lagi tau which is best for us all. heee..

although...
the other day husbeyh said he hopes the baby is a boy.
i replied "hey! jangan doa la!!"
to which he replied "biar lah! baby i gak!"
and i said "bagi la i dapat apa i nak. asyik you je yang dapat apa you nak..."

bet you can guess what i want. bueheheheheheee =p

but then again, in all seriousness, whatever gender baby is, he or she is still a blessing from Allah Maha Pemurah, and we love him or her a lot.
and thus, for now, husbeyh & i are gonna enjoy the Guess the Baby's Gender game. ihik!

wore this last night to iftar at Kelantan Delights at Sooka Central (first time woh makan kat KL Sentral area!!). the area of that place.. it's like a super small version of Putrajaya. 

shawl: plain black shawl given by Shea Rasol kesayangan
loose top : Cotton On (belly can expand sesuka hati in it coz it's super loose & comfy)
Lavida Long Panel Skirt : Cangkuk at Fashionvalet (coz all my bottoms dah kotat.. ni je la staple skirt for me)
Cardigan in Floral : House of Doll at Fashionvalet

i know.
biasa je kan.
ha. laki ke pompuan?
=p


Thursday, June 6, 2013

on travel perspective

oh history.

throughout school years, every Sejarah class, memang time terbaik untuk tersungguk macam bola tennis kena pukui; ke kiri, ke kanan, ke belakang, ke depan, berpusing pusing, bergaya sungguh kepala cik puan ni bila tersungguk. on good days, i'd have a drool on the side of my face.

bukan sengaja tapi otak macam dah setting sendiri.

Sejarah = nap time

ugh.. anyway, by form 4, i knew i can't have any career Sejarah-based like lawyer ke, or... historian ke. so i buang jauh jauh itu ambition and till today, still have that setting in my brain.

husband is completely different.
he can stomach hours of history!!
crazy dude! ok takde la crazy sangat, but i memang senang impressed liddat. heheee..

so we were talking about traveling the other day, about the things we like about it.
he said he likes to know the history of the place, the history of culture, history, history, history.
i said i like to see how the sunset looks like in a different country, how the sea smells like, how the trees, birds, cats, clouds all look like, what the locals do and what's 'normal' to them, things like that.

and then he started laughing coz ye la, he thought when i said i like traveling, it's because i want to know about the culture or whatever things he likes to do kan.

and because when we went to Bali (first ever trip overseas together), he actually enjoyed watching the Kechak dance and Barong dance, and he thought i did too! which i did. for the first couple of minutes. *grins toothily*

so pastilah he asked me, "you tahu tak dance tu pasal apa?"

i said "which dance?"

"Barong dance. tu pasal apa?"

after a few seconds of squinting, and recalling the dance, i answered, "eleh. pasal gamelan."


maafkan daku oh sayang, 
ku tahu mereka di depan, 
sedang berdansa & bergoyang, 
tapi gue, 
totap suka tengok si gamelan,
sebab diorang berkemban,
dan cute.

sekian pantun cik puan.

=B

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

hey baby, ngorat boleh?

assalamualaikum peliks!

truth be told, it has been a while since i've been personal with my blog.
been doing reviews a lot..

and truth be told, i am pregnant!

say say say whaaaaaaat??

oui! alhamdulillah i am pregnant!

dah a few months dah actually =p

it was a very... challenging first trimester.

hmmm nak story ke tak. 
...................................
story la sikit. 

ehem.

ok so i imagine the experience back from a third persons' view and it looks funny but the experience on me, it was soooooooooo harrrrdddd!!!

1. i had to eat all the time. i must have biscuits with me at all times. hunger will cause me to vomit.
2. i couldn't read. reading made me dizzy. dizziness made me vomit.
3. i couldn't stay vertical for more than a few minutes. sitting or standing for too long made me vomit.
4. i could only eat seciput nasi and 1 jenis lauk. watching others eat made me wanna vomit. having too much on my plate made me wanna vomit. eating too much made me vomit.
5. i couldn't drive. driving made me dizzy. refer to no. 2.
6. i have to be in a quiet place. noise made me dizzy. refer to no. 2.

oh the list goes on.
so as you can imagine, i was bed bound for the longest time, for the first time!
i ni dah la memang jenis takleh duduk diam. i was a workaholic.
i jenis yang memang kena buat something. free time means opportunity-looking time.

oh ya. i'm not working anymore as an engineer. i'm working on a project which i hope will be successful when it's done. in sha Allah.
and i'm still studying heee.. tak sabar nak habis!!! aaahhhhhh!!!

ok back to being bed bound.
i had accepted to do some product reviews (before i knew i was pregnant) kan... tapi body tak larat... i pernah sakit hati sangat sebab my body tak boleh nak cooperate with me, sampai i nanes nanes..
i told my hubby about it of course, and he was being very supportive cakap i can do it, and i have to do it sebab rezeki, blablabla, pastu i marah dia lak.
hahaahahahahahahaha!
i cakap "u cakap macam senang je! cuba you pregnant!"

emo gila =p

biasa la orang pregnant kan. hormone and feelings macam gila sket. off-tune.

yang kelakar nya, i can get easily emotional by songs.
i heard lagu Yuna - Lelaki.
kan dia nya chorus, it goes "lelaki tak guuuuuuuuuuuuuuna, etc etc"

i loved the song, but the song made me so emotional, bukan setakat emo je, tapi nangis nangis and geram nya emo tuuhhh! sampai i muntah and pening pening, and every man yang i rasa tak guns sume goes through my mind and the 'tak puas hati' feeling tu stayed on sampai i lupa lagu tu ok!!!

sakit pale tul. even PRU made me sick!

and then, there's me being on my own with nothing to do. body and mind nak rest tapi jiwaku perlukan fresh air, perlukan jalan jalan, tapi apo nak buek.

i even had plans for my semester break. i wanted to go bungy jumping and skydiving, roller coaster riding, knee boarding, and more, tapi again. apo nak buek. tunggu baby keluar, and then i ajak dia buat skali with me. nyehehehehee =p

so being on my own was tougher than i thought. i was tired all the time.
but for the first time, i was able to rest all day!
i think for years, i have very seldom had real rest.
rest pun boleh online lagi. dulu la.

but this time, i was really resting. all my gadgets i letak tepi. (i hated my phone =p sebab it always rings. ada je keje kena buat. i ignored a lot.. huhu..)
and rasa best pulak. just chilling and talking to my baby. and just picturing of what i will do when the baby arrives.

there are times (present tense ya) when people remind me of things i wanted to do but couldn't (due to pregnancy opkos), it wasn't easy to.. accept? is that the word? ha camtu la.
it wasn't easy, but i know Allah is the best of Planners, and He planned this for me and my family.
there has to be a reason why He chose me to carry a child now kan =)

keredhaan & keikhlasan has been said to be the 2 hardest feelings to summon when we're not emotionally stable.

so apo nak buek? tunggu emosi stable la pastu panggil la itu perasaan! hehee!

i think for now cukup la i nak berkarang pasai pregnancy ni.
ponek pulak. heheee =p

hope you all can forgive me for my carelessness when i blog these days. i can't always jaga your hati, therefore, i ask for your cooperation to at least be tactful with mine =)
kalau request ni macam berat sebelah, alamak, sorry la ya!

to all experienced mothers, i'd love to hear your advices!! and you're so awesome! sebab now i know what it's like to be pregnant, and most of you have done so much better than me!
SALUTE!! RESPECT!!
may Allah reward you for your strength and patience! =D

ok la itu je =)

salam!

ps: thanks for reading this super long post! love you lillahi!

Saturday, April 13, 2013

kiyomi, kiyomi!

assalamualaikum!


so i know this is the era of kpop.
walaupun ramai yang terjebak tapi i'm one of those yang masih tak reti nak menjinakkan diri.

tapi takleh deny la diorang memang cute. hehe!

anyway, since my last video, (yang kite cakap banyak tuuu), ada la pulak orang request buat kiyomi. kat twitter la, kat fb la.

mula mula macam pelik la, sebab ramai request benda yang sama, for the first time!
dulu ada la jugak request harlem shake la, buat oppa gangnam parody, tapi this is seriously the first time i dapat requests yang sehati sejiwa!

uolls komplot ke?
ahahahak! =p

so i research la sikit kiyomi ni.

ada banyak version, ada kiyomi, ada gwiyomi, ada gwiyouemi, sampai i pun don't know which is the right spelling, but whatever it is, they're all doing the same thing.

that 40+seconds of cuteness.

i pun terjatuh la cinta pada those girls yang super cute!
tapi motip la sangat aku nak buat sebab i know myself well enough that i can't be cute like that!

tapi sebab i think the song is super cute, and i thought, oh well, apa la salahnya. maka lahirlah video ajaib ini =p

checks outs thes videos heres: KIYOMI

just so you know, i don't make the video to diss kpoppers. just made this for pure fun =D
my version is seriously awkward tapi oh well, that is as cute as i could get, and it's so brief that i can forgive myself for being that awkward. hehe!

enjoys!
oh and kalau uolls nak buat, sila lah!
for fun =p

salam!

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

i luf my family

assalamualaikum!

rasa cam sekejap je masa berlalu.
it's already april!
and today is my big brother's birthday, yayyy!
alhamdulillah abang saya yang second tu dah 27 years old =)

my bros are awesome.
=)

ok so, ni compilation of cerita cerita minggu saya!

1. haritu i was watching the movie Abduction on tv with my parents. kitorang takde la tengok khusyuk sangat pun. just watch sambil cakap and i tengok my mom main that candy crush game (which she is so obsessed with now). pastu tiba satu scene where the Jacob dude guy (i don't know his name) fought with this CIA agent in the train.

we all watched with so much emotion, coz i was like "lari! lari! ha pusing, tumbuk!" and my mom pun sama naik.
at one point the CIA agent tu dah knocked out and the Jacob dude tengah macam fikir kot nak buat apa ngan mamat tu.
my mom got so emo, she said "ha amik pistol! tembak otet dia!"

BAHAHAHAHHHAHHAHAHAH!!!

"hurt him where it hurts most!" she said!!

hahahhahahaha!!! dah lamaaaaaa gila tak dengar orang panggil benda tu ot*t!!!

2. i was talking with le hubby about future family and stuff. like our kid's names, what kind of activities we want them to choose from, stuff like that.
it was fun and fine =)

then i said i nak the kids call me umi.
hubs said he wants to be called Vader.

like Darth Vader.

coz vader means father.

and i asked "vat are you serious?"

he said yeah, coz he wants to have that scene when he says to the child "I AM YOUR FATHER" and the child screams back "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!" sambil peluk tiang.

memang good for me la kot. our kids first words will never be calling their dad. baby mana boleh cakap vader? MUAHHAHAAHHAHAHA!!

i am guessing this will be his profile picture kat whatsapp and caller pic for the kids. hehe!!


3. haritu my family and i went out for dinner together. so bila balik tu, we saw a car outside of our gate. punya la kita "eh sape ni?", "kawan Ike ke?", "apasal dia dok depan gate? gi la tepi dulu kalau ye pun!".
then my bro bukak gate. and the car masuk!!
masuk rumah kita and park kat depan rumah.
amboiiii!

abang pun kata "he eh! suka hati je!"

kita pun masuk la, dan park di sebelah kereta tersebut.
abang (dia yang drive) turunkan tingkap, agaknya nak sound la.
pastu tengok tengok yang keluar kereta tu are orang orang tua.

OUR UNCLE AND AUNTY RUPANYAAAA!

they came over to our car and adik (yang duduk sebelah abang) said "he (my abang) was just asking who you are."

i ngan hubby tahan gelak kat belakang. malu abang weolls tu!

hehehehehe!!

tu la dah kata. husnuzon!!

4. last but not least, over the weekend, my hubby and i were obsessed with this video coz its SO FUNNY!!

selamat gelak!



=p

ok tu je.

salam!




Sunday, February 10, 2013

aikol u jap lagi ok?

prof maria. 

amboih!

this was long time ago, before i got married (sekarang nak describe time, wedding is the penentu. before getting married means long time ago, after getting married means baru baru ni. aneh kau maria.) i participated in this client counseling session for law students in UIA.

it's really weird for me to be part of this.

firstly, saya engineer ketika itu. secondly, saya tak tau kebende la client counseling tu. thirdly, saya pemalas nak tukar baju lepas keje. fourthly, saya bukan lawyer.

fifthly, saya maria.

motip.

anyways, it was kinda coincidental. i was supposed to have a class that day lepas keje. so mula mula memang nak tolak la the invitation. until my lecturer said the class was cancelled. so apa lagi. 
cakap "i onz!" je la =p

then masa kat sana, i agak blur blur la sebab tak tau apa nak buat, and part of me macam penat from work and stuff so jadi takleh nak digest sangat info2 the committees bagi.
kesian prof mars ni.
hahahaa!!

but it was so fun! first time i dapat belakon jadi mak datin over as a client to two competing teams!

i think this was the part where the dude kneeling, the acting husband, pleading to have me back. oh, i as the datin mintak bercerai kot. and nak all harta back.

oh and the custody of the children.
and i think i said something like "mestilah i nak the children! syurga diorang under my tapak kaki you know!"

kahahahahakahakahahaa!!

i haven't acted for so long.
last i remembered was in uni.
coincidentally, asfirdaus, masa tu yang tak pernah nak pergi tengok theater kat uni, went with his roomate. just because.

and that was the first time he saw me. 

and kids, that was how i met your mother. the end.

eh eh ehhhhh!! salah cite.
=p

oh wait. cinta vlog tu ada la buat appearance. tapi that 5seconds of appearance don't count as acting la. more to menyibuk. enterframe. passerby.
so, not counted la.
hehehe!!

ha tudiaaa! si muka pucat di AIKOL!

sweet sis Taqiah =)

professor professor dan lawyer lawyer berjaya dunia akhirat, insha Allah =)

2 of my best friends are lawyers, and being part of the client counseling competition showed me a small portion of what they do for a living.

and this part of life is what i love most.

being able to experience and see different types of people and learn from them =)

peace!


Wednesday, February 6, 2013

melatah

assalamualaikum~

watashiwa maria desssss!!

kombawaaaaa!

oh cuba la saya nak meng-cutekan diri dengan menggunakan bahasa jepun bajet anime (mata besau dah ada...), namun hakikatnya saya tak cute macam "cute" tapi cute versi pipi tejojol.


i just uploaded this picture on instagram yesterday, and mashaAllah..
ramainya kata watashiwa dah tembam des.

and ada juga yang ingat saya dah pregnant....
sob sob.. nanes kua hinus..

i think since i've become a Mrs., all people are anxious about hearing next is the "baby news".
and every happiness of mine, for some, means i'm pregnant, therefore i am happy. padahal i makan nasi putih, ayam goreng dan kicap pun boleh buat i happy..

i'm not pregnant yet.

and if asking if i am pregnant is a polite way of telling me that i'm fatter now, then.. ok, i kurangkan makan nasi putih, ayam goreng dan kicap. hehehehe! =p


secondly, (kalau ikut formal letter format, tak perlu state no.1) i ni boleh tahan kuat melatah la. i'm a bit jumpy for some reason. ok, not a bit la. more than a bit. a little bit more. pun boleh. =p
i don't remember how it all began.
but lantaklah. i melatah and that's that.

it used to be a lot worse before. i used to melatah bahasa entahpape with gaya. and if someone surprised me with "wah!!", i will melatah "wahh!!" dengan gaya ikut apa badan nak buat. i was that spontaneous..

now i've trained myself to melatah positively. most of the time i melatah "ya Allah!!".
but equally most of the time juga, i melatah "opocot mak kau!"

dulu kat uni pernah la ramai gak la kawan jawab balik, "apa? mak aku apa?", and so i tried stopping myself from melatah that way again.. but it's really hard..

what more kalau bila terkejut bertubi tubi.

the other day i went to watch a horror movie, Mama, with my sis-in-law, Fatin Liyana (the super famous doctor blogger ihikkk!!) and my mom-in-law. mak aih.. it's like any other ghost movie. not particularly scary, but the element of surprise tu, memang surprising lah!!

first terkejut "ya Allah!!"
second "opocot mak kau!"
third "opocot bontot!"
fourth "aiyoyo!!"
fifth "hocococohh!!"

semakin banyak terkejut bertubi tubi, semakin merepek.

astaghfirullahalazim..


i think this pic best show how selebet we can be when we couldn't be bothered.


orang kata kena basahkan lidah dengan zikrullah sentiasa so that the beautiful names of Allah SWT will meresap masuk jiwa kita dan insha Allah, Allah SWT akan sentiasa in our hearts and minds. 
and orang kata kalau nak a new habit to stay, practise for 21 days, and in sha Allah the brain will accept it as a new habit.

so now, i need someone to terkejutkan i everyday for 21days and make sure all those times i melatah dengan zikir zikir seperti "Allahu akbar!", "subhanallah!", "alhamdulillah!" dan sebagainya.


.... husband?

(memang tak lah. kalau dia buat, i rasa i yang merajuk after 2nd day. gahahannenabhaha gelak terabur)

salam!

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

kasih padamu Ya Rasulullah



Rasulullah dalam sirahMu
 Ku temu tulusnya cinta
Demi umatMu berkorban jiwa
Sehingga hujung nyawa

Kau di utus atas nama Kebenaran
Dengan fasih lidah beri penjelasan
Sabar dalam apa jua keadaan
Tak goyah dengan ranjau tekanan

Walau diri bisa menakluki takhta
Tetap rendah hati penuh sederhana
Segalanya demi LillahiTaala
Azimat yang berharga

Rasulullah dengan hikmahMu
Terpancar syiar agama
Mengubah gelap Menjadi terang
Menghapus jahiliyah

Rasulullah Engkau tinggalkan
Semangat juang tertinggi
Membina satu aqidah
Membangun Iman dan dilapangan Mujahadah

Dari hadith dan AlQuran
Menjadi sumber cahaya pedoman
Hanya itu yang Kau wariskan
Akan selamat di dunia akhirat

Rasulullah Terlalu Rindu
Padamu Junjungan Jiwa
Didalam senda yang utama
Menyambungkan kasih denganMu

Rasulullah dalam sirahMu
Ku temu tulusnya cinta
Demi umatMu berkorban jiwa
Sehingga hujung nyawa

Rasulullah dengan hikmahMu
Terpancar syiar agama
Mengubah gelap Menjadi terang
Menghapus jahiliyah

Ya Rasulullah Ya HabibAllah
Pabila terkenangMu mengalir air mataku…..
  
credit lyrics to: http://anna-insan.blogspot.com/2012/09/kasih-padamu.html

memandangkan tomorrow is Maulidur Rasul, i thought i'd be nice to share this with everyone =)
it is a lovely song, one among many songs reminding us of Nabi Muhammad SAW =')

dengan ini, i would also like to share the significance of Syafaat Nabi (SAW).
syafaat means advantages granted by Allah SWT to Nabi Muhammad SAW and other prophets on kiamat/Judgement Day.

*i'm not an expert on this yet, so i just share whatever i've learnt so far. syafaat ni is a huge topic..*

one of the simplest and suitable selawat for any time is 

اللَّهُمَّ صَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلَى آلِ مُحَمَّدٍ


"Ya Tuhan kami, selawatkanlah ke atas Nabi Muhammad dan ke atas keluarganya."
tahiyyat is also selawat for Nabi Muhammad SAW.
there are other types of selawat too, tapi i tak include la sebab i belum finish study the meanings and bila the best to use them =B if you know, please do share!! =D
so depending on each individual's understanding, best to practice it coz syafaat Nabi Muhammad SAW is worth it. the best times to berselawat are:
1. bila dengar orang sebut nama Nabi Muhammad SAW
2. lepas berwudhu' 
3. bila masuk/keluar masjid
4. bila bila mengingatinya

the significance of selawat for Nabi and syafaat, is as mentioned on its meaning:
"advantages granted by Allah SWT to Nabi Muhammad SAW and other prophets on kiamat/Judgement Day"
and the biggest advantage is that it can be our "fast ticket" to Syurga masa di Padang Mahsyar nanti. 
imagine bila cari kerja. because kita kenal orang dalam, we got "recommended" and get to skip the whole interviewing session, best kan? i mean, yeah sekarang kita fikir it's unfair for those who worked hard for it. but in the Hereafter, kita dapat "recommendation" by Nabi Muhammad SAW himself due to our efforts of remembering him, and skip the whole line to Syurga, it's great kan! this is just an example. i can never imagine what it's going to really be like, tapi lebih baik kita prepare ourselves dari tak prepare langsung.
dunia ni pun untuk preparation je kan. =)
wallahu'alam.

achievements di dunia won't matter much if it's not synced with achievements in the Hereafter.. that's why i believe that it's great for us all to want to be successful while we're alive, but it's even better to want to be successfully enter Syurga Firdaus bila dah meninggal dunia as well =')
so that's all yang i boleh share! 
i know my ilmu in this matter is not so big (yet) and maybe terlalu awal i nak share, tapi mana tau. ada juga manfaatnya 

=)
with this, i encourage myself (boleh kan? =p) and everyone who reads this to tambahkan ibadah dengan berselawat kepada Nabi SAW sebanyak mungkin, on top of all other ibadah we have been doing! 
in sha Allah with all of our efforts, kita dapat keredhaan-Nya, which is the main objective!

and lastly, i end with this pic i found on tumblr =)



sorry for my kekurangan! in sha Allah i will add on from time to time =)
salam!

Friday, January 18, 2013

forever young =)

alhamdulillah tokmak turned 80 earlier this month!


awesome sungguh! bunting made by aunty rahi!

because tokmak turned 80 this year, my mom and her siblings planned a party for her at our house. it was themed Pink and Bling because tokmak being tokmak, loves pink and she's always wear her blings out. her biggest blings have always been her brooches. cute sangat!

part of the decor =)

this cake looked so good and cool that we all just cant wait to slice it open and nomnom like crazy!

and memang.. the cake was delicious!!!!!

special bubble effects by the lil' cousins
comel la korang ni tau takkk!??!

pulut pun made by aunty rahi too! coolness!!

it was a real fun celebration that day =)

my aunt from UK made a special appearance and surprised everyone! she arrived 2 days before the party, and tak bagitau sape2 pun! amboi aunty.. boleh jadi spy betul. haha!!

mama had this uncle to come and play music the whole time too.
bila uncle tu main lagu "pakai baju kancing la suasa" terus tokmak, my aunties and my uncles start dancing!!
hehehe!!
comel sangat diorang!

even my tokwan!! abah and ayahcho kena la dance with her! hehehe! =p

tokwan dah la sakit kaki, but she forced herself up and started moving around dancing with the rest! 
she told all of us before, about how she used to dance with arwah tok. and seeing her dance, even if it was just jiggling from side to side, we were just so happy and touched by her efforts. comel je tokwan ni =')

and then the men took over the floor. hahahha!

oh and while the grown ups dancing and lepaking downstairs, the young ones kat atas main main.
main main dengan our treadmill. hahahaha!

so anyway, macam macam ada masa the celebration.

tokmak was touched and during her speech, we all got teary, and then the siblings lak bagi speech to tokmak, and again we got teary. not forgetting aunty nilo's suprice appearance that made everyone happy and amazed (coz she pulled it off successfully!!). and and... AH BANYAK LA!!
it was just special!!

hari tu i posted a pic of tokmak on instagram. ramai la pulak tanya camane she looked so young!
i asked her for her secret, and she said:

tokmak: eh, apa secret secret? aku buat macam bese jeee. semayang jangan tinggal, baca Quran, baca selawat banyak banyak kali, ha tu je la!!

mars: makan minum? pantang ke apa ke?

tokmak: makan je apa ko naak. bia sihat.

mars: takkan tu je?

tokmak: ish. ko be happy je. don' worry, be happy. haaa. kalo orang buat sakit ke apa, bio je. be happy je. jangan senang amek ati tau. tak suka, tengok benda lain. kalo tak tenang, selawat je. banyak ingat Allah.


ha tu dia. her secrets!
solat, read Quran, selawat banyak banyak, and don't worry, be happy! seems simple enough innit?
i think with all the ibadah she has been practicing, they've done good to her mental health. as for her physical health, we know it's because she busy herself with activities with her friends. she goes around with her hadrah group in muo, so she's not bored nor unfit.
and i think it's genetics too. ihik!
=)
my parents pun 54 years old this year. alhamdulillah they're in good health, physically and mentally! 

so as a conclusion, jaga lah diri, mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually so that in sha Allah we'll be able to live long enough to bring benefit to others too. in sha Allah =)

peace.