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Wednesday, April 17, 2024


 Selamat Hari Raya~

Maaf Zahir & Batin~ Batin especially sebab my online existence is easier to access than physical...


My daughter ni, she likes to say "malaha", which is "malas la" yang dimalaskan lagi. 

"You need to do your homework straight away. That day itself kena buat so that dia tak pile up banyak", said me or husband. We sometimes nag about the same things. 

"Ughh.. malaha", she would say.


I also don't know how to raise a tween... May Allah give her hidayah, and give us patience 👐

The other day, i gave RM 10 to my kids. They needed to buy food but it only costed RM 6 for them both. So there should be RM 4 change kan.

"Don't forget to take the change tau!", i sarankan.

"Don't worry, Ummi. I won't let it slide", my daughter said.

"Slide? What slide?", my son asked. May Allah bless him.

"Ah, you won't understand", daughter said.

"Why?", son said.

"You're too young", she answered.

"Why won't you explain? You Malaha Explainer!", he said. We were laughing at this! 😂😂

"You Malaha Explorer!", he continued.

"Iblis!", he added. (referring to Sister Minnie's IG 😂)

// As usual, please remember to boycott pro-isnajis companies, donate to right sources, and doa for the freedom and liberation of Palestinians & Palestine //

Ps: I do truly apologise if i had intentionally or unintentionally offended you. Sorry if my writings were not beneficial to you and caused you inconvenience, and sorry for ignorance. I ada baca my past posts and i'm like "what the hell was i thinking when i wrote this??"😵 posts yang i perasan tu, alhamdulillah la. Tapi yang tak perasan pulak... aiguuu... Sorry....

Sunday, March 17, 2024

Ramadan berbeza kali ini

 Alhamdulillah kita bertemu bulan Ramadan in the comfort of our homes, with our loved ones, with alhamdulillah food & water aplenty.

What more can we ask for? Especially given what the Palestinians are currently experiencing.

The smallest amount of what we have can't even compare to what they are having.

I pray to Allah SWT that we are always mindful and grateful for the rezeki that we have, and for our brothers and sisters in Palestine, and also anywhere in the world who are oppressed and deprived of basic human needs to have their rezeki come flowing in now.

It has only been a few days of fasting but Allah... forgive me... i realised how much i've taken things for granted just because i've been blinded by the luxuries i'm surrounded with.

Rasa malu..

I've been watching videos - people being bombed and killed, children starving, people mourning for their lost love & life, and then there were videos of conspiracy theories, parliaments, politicians, truths and lies, sampai jadi nak muntah.

For now i stand with what i know: governments are not their people.

I do feel ashamed though, for not being able to do more. I feel scared too for when the time comes, they will look for me and testify that i only watched and did nothing to help stop this genocide.

I don't know what to do.

We've seen how isnajis and their accomplices been such a dick, no, worse than that. They've blocked aids from entering, the air aids were inefficient, and now they're building a port for sea aid, which is strange because if the amerikens can bring in their trucks to build the port, then why not do the same for the aid trucks?

Propaganda nonstop and it's disgusting. Sometimes i get acid reflux from all this madness.

Just recently my daughter had surgery to remove her tonsils, and i couldn't feel as much 'sorriness' for her because the thought of children in Gaza having to undergo surgery without anaesthetics, the images burned behind my retina, prevented me from it. Of course, i took care of my daughter through everything, and i did as much as i could to ease her through her recovery. Alhamdulillah, my daughter was blessed to be able to go through everything smoothly and comfortably. She had all the medicines needed, and she was even blessed to eat whatever ice creams she had wanted. 

But at the back of my mind, i couldn't help but think how the kids there had to not only go through the painful surgeries, but the recovery too must not have been easy and yet, they have to quickly adapt and move on because threats kept coming. As a mother, i imagine the guilt of seeing your child in pain and how i wish to take the pain upon myself rather than the children... It sucks. 

It really sucks.

I watched a video by Dr Omar Suleiman and i think he spoke for most of us during this time.

may Allah forgive us..
May Allah inspire us with ideas and methods to help our brothers and sisters in Palestine
May Allah provide for them, protect them, and keep their faith strong
May Allah elevate their ranks in Jannah and accept the dead as martyrs
May Allah provide for the orphans, the crippled, the starving, the diseased, and more with all the help they need


May this Ramadan be filled with goodness and remembrance for Allah SWT.

Thursday, January 11, 2024

The Hague

 is synonymous to UN's International Court of Justice (ICJ).

To understand what ICJ is:

The ICJ can consider whether a State has committed genocide under the Genocide Convention. Under that Convention, genocide is defined as any of the following acts committed with intent to destroy, in whole or in part, a national, ethnical, racial or religious group:
  • Killing members of the group;
  • Causing serious bodily or mental harm to members of the group;
  • Deliberately inflicting on the group conditions of life calculated to bring about its physical destruction in whole or in part;
  • Imposing measures intended to prevent births within the group;
  • Forcibly transferring children of the group to another group.
- Source: Pursuit

South Africa applied for the genocidal case against Isrubbish at ICJ, and upon watching the live broadcast of the hearing, i am hopeful that the ICJ will have no choice but to acknowledge Isrubbish's war crimes (that they have published on Tikytoky and on their news).

The South African lawyers did great by not only providing multiple proof, but also giving comparisons to ICJ's quick decision and treatment when it came to Ukraine/Russia, and several others thus pressuring them to make a quick ruling.

It was as if they're saying "Ooh, ngan orang lain, ko bagi muka. Ni ha depan mata, ko dah takleh buat tak nampak lak". Setepek kena kat muka diorang.
Lagi-lagi kat isrubbish.
Their Tikytoky videos were used as evidence! MORE! Give them moreeeeee!!

There were many key points, many angles were touched on, and most importantly, their genocidal intent cannot be disputed. Setanyahu himself had given a statement that had genocidal intent. 

So what does this imply?
What's next?
What will the ICJ do?

If all goes well, inshaAllah, we can end the massacre of innocent people.
A ceasefire.

The problem: ICJ can give a ruling, but there will be no enforcement.

The important thing is to have a ceasefire.
I think that's the first and most important objective for this hearing to happen. And then, i hope that Isrubbish will blunder itself.
South Africa's lawyers (not all South African fyi) have already opened Isrubbish's box of shame, some countries already cutting political/economic ties with them, and hopefully Saudi's 'normalisation' will never happen. Takleh nak caya anak si salman tu...

Si setanyahu tu tengah gelabah sekarang, so he's waging more wars with Lebanon, Syria and sapentah lagi. Because when there's war, he can stay in power longer. Now it all depends on how Hezbollah responds. If Hezbollah responds to Isrubbish's provocations, then Isrubbish may still be able to exist because US & UK will continue arming them to "defend itself". 
The only way the war can stop completely (in my opinion la), is when US and UK stop giving them money to buy weapons, and Hezbollah to not respond to their attacks so that Isrubbish will waste all their ammo, all their support system and then bankrupt.
And also for the mujahids to annihilate the Diapers soldiers.

Yemen, completely independent of any influence remained as the guardians of the Red Sea. US ke UK ke bagi diorang warnings to let them through, but they're like "No. You're not the boss of me and we're not scared of you". If Isrubbish continues bombing Gaza, ignoring warnings from UN, WHO, and whatever else, then why should Yemen heed anyone's warnings too? At least they're not killing anyone with glee, unlike Diaper soldiers who post videos and cheer at the destruction and murder of the innocent.

Tak tau la...

Allah knows what's best. Allah is Most Just.
He is the Protector, He is the Provider.
Allah is the Al-Muntaqim : the Avenger. He splits the spines of those who deviate from His path, Who increases the penalty of those who oppress in the land, after alerting them and repeatedly warning them, and after enabling them to amend, giving them a respite.

May Allah give victory to Palestine and Palestinians. 
May Allah bless those who have been fighting for them, supporting them, and defending them.

ps: if you read till the end, thank you. Please doa for our brothers and sisters in Palestine. Boycott & Doa.

Monday, January 8, 2024

It has been 93 days

..since Isnajis's genocide.

Next week, it'll be 100 days.

100 days of bodies trapped under rubbles, kids amputated without anesthesia, kids becoming orphans in a split second, women giving birth without proper care, babies being left to die in hospital, pregnant women being rolled over by a bulldozer, the execution of children, infants and women, the carpet bombing, the indiscriminate bombings, the humiliation and detainment of innocent men and women, the kidnappings, the stealing of homes, raids, and lootings...

Just when i thought i've seen the worst, they went and showed that they can do worse than that!

And with impunity! With no consequences!

No action was taken to their "accidents", or "mistakes".

"Improper munitions"???
The fact that there were munitions was already a war crime, and they're saying "Whoops, salah bomb la! Hekhek sowwy!"

And then, 

They denied it. 
And then tutup case.
Camtu ek? 

We're seeing deranged people, who actually take pleasure in murder.

So.. ICC, International Criminal Court, didn't penalise Baby Setanyahu for not having a leash on his people.
And recently, BECAUSE of South Africa, whose got balls, submitted an 84-page suit that Isnajis was genocidal.
If ICJ is kononnya 'fair', then they have to speed up their process, like how they did for Ukraine vs Russia.

We know these so-called democratic, fair, 'voice for the people' are just lies, based on what we have seen. I had lost my respect for UN who don't have the balls to uphold justice when it was very very obvious that Isnajis were purposely starving the Palestinians, refusing and sabotaging aid from entering any gates into Gaza, and even when their staff were murdered, their refugee schools were bombed, they're like "Oh no.... They're dead... They're suffering...."
The fact that they allowed veto was stupid. 

I'm just ranting, because i am helpless.
I tried having the solat isyak berjemaah + solat hajat for Palestine and to be honest, it was underwhelming.
It's my fault for expecting too much but itu pun.. punya lah susah nak berkempen. I tabik hormat kat Alif Satar for his solat subuh berjemaah kat masjid movement.

It humbled me in a way. I acknowledge that i'm a nobody.
So i continue with what i can.
Sharing news from Palestine, about Palestine and also about our enemies. We need to know our enemies, because:

“If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles. If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained you will also suffer a defeat. If you know neither the enemy nor yourself, you will succumb in every battle.”

― Sun Tzu, The Art of War

May Allah bless the Palestinians. May Allah give them victory over the enemies. May Allah soothe their pains and hearts. 
Allah's Knowledge is beyond our understanding. To trust Him, His Timing, His Punishment and Rewards, is all in His hands.
All i know is, in the meantime, 


Thursday, November 30, 2023

May Our Efforts Count for Something

 I really admire the people in US, UK, even in Spain, South Korea, Pakistan, Australia who have been marching for Palestine.

If i'm not wrong, US & UK had their 7th weekend protest, and their numbers are still in 5 figures. The Pro-Palestinians (and it's a lot of them alhamdulillah) are practically fighting their government to ceasefire and stop funding the genocide with their tax money.

Cynthia Nixon was outrightly calling for ceasefire, to the point of making a hunger strike in front of the rumah putih. 

Source: Al Jazeera

Not all. Not all mat saleh are bad, not all jews are bad.

Our real enemies are: Zionists, Settlers, IDF/IOF, and of course Setanyahu.

In reality, anyone can be bad regardless of religion. Muslim pun ada perangai cam setan, walaupun tak se-setan setanyahu. Setanyahu tu memang bapak segala setan.


As Malaysians, i follow the news as closely as i can. Since kitorang takde nak protes-protes, solidarity march every weekend, or send our military troops like Yemen, we have to show support differently. I pun nak berjihad, and i want to help our brothers and sisters in Palestine, Syria, etc etc.

Secara simple-nya, i see 2 ways:

1. Learn more about Islam. 

Akidah, fiqah, etc etc. Sebab makin lama, makin ramai akan curious pasal islam. And being a born and raised muslim, there are so many things i take for granted.

I saw so many people, non-muslims, who started reading the Quran, and their understanding of Allah's Word is so much better that i jadi malu. 

Malunya i ni tak boleh fikir cam diorang ni.. They see Allah's Words with fresh eyes, so with that, they see and understand it in ways i didn't! Subhanallah..

So, i sendiri tengah prepping myself, learning as much as i can so that i can teach my kids, and if suddenly ada someone tanya i pasal islam, i can answer them confidently. 

And hopefully, with learning, we can also implement the teachings in our life. Cakap tak serupa bikin tak guna gak kan.

May Allah bless us all with ilmu yang bermanfaat. Amiiin~

2. Save money (or things) to sedekah.

We all have seen the devastation, the destruction of the Gaza city. And the lahanats already started massacring Jenin.

The cost for rebulding will be... fuhhh... i rasa they need like billions kot. Imagine nak rebuild hospitals, schools, universities, homes and homes, markets... BANYAK GILA WEH! 

That's why we need to prepare to give. 

InshaAllah, with our portion of rezeki, we can help them rebuild their life faster.

In the meantime...





(i tak tau if i'm allowed to doa like this btw... So jangan la ikut i sangat ek. Tapi i tengah marah, geram & benci diorang sangat2!!)

Ya Allah! You are The Provider, The Most Gentle, The Provider, The Most Loving, The Most Generous, The Wealthy, The Most Merciful and Most Forgiving...

Please forgive the oppressed for their lackings, but elevate them in status for being patient, please provide them comfort, food, and shelter, please give them warmth, and protection from the harsh living conditions & weather now, please soothe their hearts, give them good health, and give them their dignity. Bless them in multi folds, bless them with abundance & barakah.

Help the orphaned, Ya Allah... The crippled... Help them Ya Allah...

Ya Allah, let them win. Help the mujahideen to win against the oppressor. Help them gain victory. Help them in their mission to liberate their people.


If you have any other suggestions on what we should prepare for, share in comment!

Sunday, November 19, 2023

Free Palestine

 Palestine in my heart.

I've been posting stuff on instagram, sharing & reposting things that would be useful information for people who are still unaware, forgotten, and fallen for their lies.

Coz, let's be real. There are still a lot among us who are either not supportive of any Palestine movements or don't want to be involved in the cause.

But it's ok. I do whatever i can anyway, not just for others, but for myself too because i had forgotten at some point.. This time, i hope (may Allah help me), that i can continue to remember them. 👐

For the past month, i came to a conclusion that UN is useless, arab nations are twisted, and yemen is brave.

In the case of UN... Israshits had bombed UNRWA schools, UN refugee camps, UN staff, and still, they just... do nothing.

If you wanna know the 'WHY' they're not doing anything despite the many meetings, many throwing words here and there, read this. It's just stupid nonsense, in my opinion. The israshits were already proven guilty of illegally occupying, committing war crimes, using banned weapons, but still the UN's not gonna enforce their legal power on them. They're not prosecuting their baby setanyahu. 

And oh my goodness... the lies, the propaganda, the stupid 'evidence' the israshits been planting... it's a disgusting joke at this point.

But in spite of all this, there are some good things.

I've seen people (non-muslims) reading the Quran, people rewiring their perceptions about Islam, and about the indigenous people whose lands they are occupying (the mat sallehs la). For us non-mat-sallehs, it's being free from their ways, uninfluenced by their superficial standards, and being closer to our own religion, culture and history. Lies and hypocrisy being exposed. Allah bongkarkan segalanya and the chosen ones, with His Permission, will see the truth.

While, alhamdulillah, our country memang pro-palestine which means our tax money doesn't go to the israshits' pockets, we still need to do our best in not giving them even the bare minimum through boycott. But i know, ada je yang tegar tak nak boycott. Takpe la diorang tu. May Allah help all of us in our efforts to help our Palestinian brothers and sisters.

I've been telling my kids about this too, because who knows, maybe by the time my kids dah besar, diorang yang akan perjuangkan mereka yang oppressed. If something like this happens in their time, i hope they can look back at the Palestinians, and see how the world tried to save Palestine from genocide. They may have better solutions, better knowledge, and better order implementation before it's too late. And most of all, hope they are free from corruption. InshaAllah, amiiin~

I tried to teach them about 'self-defense' too. When is self-defense ok, and when it is not. The difference between defending and attacking. The difference between standing up for yourself and revenge. It isn't easy, to be honest 😅 Their sense of justice is still not matured yet. Huhu.. tapi tu la. Kena la ajar so that diorang tau the difference. 

So yeah.

Itu je la nak cite... May Allah help our brothers and sisters in Palestine. I hope that the children can grow into amazing people, that they can rebuild their lives in peace, and that they can have the freedom they deserve in their homes, their lands, and may their victory come soon. Amiin~

credit: AlJazeera

Thursday, October 19, 2023

How not to feel down in this crucial times

 If you're going down the pits because you're feeling so hopeless, angry, geram... and then you're wondering why the Arab muslims are not doing anything, the neighbouring countries, the politicians, why are they not fighting for Palestine... and then you're getting so emotionally drained because you see all these madness and massacre, happening right now, to the people in Gaza, and you're stuck behind the screen of your phones and computers, unable to do much but cry...

Stop it.

Here's how to keep your head and heart straight.

1. Don't look for influencers, celebrities, or whoever with fame/power

Don't wait for them to say "I Stand With Palestine", dan sewaktu dengannya. Some of them may know about the war, some may not. Maybe it will take time for them to learn it. Some of them have been fed with lies for so many years kot. So biarkan diorang. Kita boleh educate/teach them, tapi jangan burukkan diorang k. 

2. What can you do with what you have? Share information. Spread awareness.

It's not just by saying "I Stand With Palestine". Give information. 

What information? 

- The history of Palestine and Israel

- The truth about what Israelis have been doing

- Call out those who spread lies, debunk them and give proof of the truth

- Share organisations that are sending medical, food, water supplies to people in Gaza & Palestine

3. Educate.

Educating your children, your family, friends, peers. Those who are reachable, around your space. Teach them.

This will take a while because we can only hope that our loved ones can be on the same side as us, but in the end, it's up to them. So to educate is to be patient.

Teach children basic human rights - sedekah, helping people, being grateful etc etc, so that they themselves know how to act with kindness, how to provide help and assist those in need. InshaAllah when their time comes, they will know how to differentiate lies from truth, how to fight with intellect, and how to use technology to their advantage. 

4. Don't expect immediate results.

Don't. You doa, you donate, you share awareness, but don't expect results. Don't expect anything from the Arab muslims, don't expect anything from our government, just don't. Don't expect for anyone to give you results. Don't think "Today i donate RM 1mill" (subhanallah, alhamdulillah kalau betul lah), and then expect esoknya duit sampai kat diorang pastu diorang dapat makan ayam goreng terus. 
No. Just do whatever you're doing, and don't expect results.

The problem with us is that we like to see tangible results. We, as much as we believe in the Unseen, believe easily when we can see the fruit of our efforts. It's natural to hate the enemies and wish for their downfall but that's not up to us. Our prayers should be directed for our brothers and sisters in Palestine, and not for our enemies. Don't waste it on them. Remember, what you pray for others, the angels will pray that for you

5. Watch educational & spiritual videos.

As a muslim, believe in Allah's Plan and Timing. Bila-bila saje Allah nak hentam diorang, it will happen. We have no right to ask Allah to speed up the process. We are not capable of seeing the future and know the best outcome. So believe je. Kalau tak boleh, i suggest you watch islamic videos that talk about Palestine and ajak doa sekali. Takyah tengok debate-debate between pro-israbish and pro-palestine. It'll only make you mad.

Yaqeen Institute have videos yang uplifting & encouraging. Watch them k?


Please don't underestimate the power we hold as muslims. Our belief and faith for the Almighty, our doas, inshaAllah akan sampai. Jangan remehkan doa kita. Sekecil kecil doa kita, mana tau, doa itu lah yang akan spark the change. 

Don't lose hope, don't get depressed and sad, don't give up, don't shut off. 

Keep doing what you can, no regrets.

May Allah balas our efforts with mercy in the Hereafter.