i haven't been eating nor sleeping right.
after work, i think about work, when i sleep, i worry about work, when i wake up the next day, i'm afraid to go to work.
all this constant thinking and worrying is because of my projects which i'm leading and i as the youngest engineer to do so, i lack knowledge, experience and sadly respect.
i've been running around the factory, trying to get things done, driving around to places to find parts which are always 'urgent' and at the same time, making sure that everything in the office is under control. nak buat process engineering and being a project leader at the same time is not as easy as i thought..
and to top things up, recently i just learnt something about myself that i'm not proud of.
and i have to thank my cousin for that. =)
we're so aware about the faults of people around us (whether we know them personally or not) but honestly, how aware are we about our own faults?
change is good but never is easy, especially if the change is for the better.
but now my head hurts just thinking about the many changes i have to apply on myself and of course, managing work.
i know i should just chill. but i can't.
i have a dateline to complete my projects, have the technicians to at least respect me enough to listen to me, to come up with a system to make work more manageable, and change.
it's not that i'm unhappy, i'm completely happy! but i'm just wound up with work.
hope it'll be ok soon, once i habiskan projects 5 ketul ni, i nak chill lama-lama and i hope the next time i'm going to lead a project, i'll gain these people's respect. pastu i nak muhasabah diri.
haha!
a wise person once said to me,
'the test gets harder when the reward is better'.hopefully this is my test, and hopefully i can overcome this phase in my life.
insyallah =)
kepada adik2 saya,
jangan la nak rush rush nak bekerja. earning your own money sounds cool and stuff, but remember, you have to work for it. sabar k? =)
k la. lunch hour dah habis. time to sambung kerja.
assalamualaikum =)
62 comments:
waalaikumussalam. selamat berkerja orang baru dirisik
hoping that akak can finish the job perfectly...
kak maria !! fighting !!
You're strong. Stronger than before :)
go chayok2 kaka maghiaaaaa!!!!
^^
strong girl tak boleh mengalah! Selamat mencari rezeki dgn gigih dan sabar:)
just chill... it'll get easier...
biasa la... especially perempuan.. kdg2 rasa diperbodohkan. tapi nt dah lama2 kita dah ada experience and confidence... org akan dengar ckp kite
that's ma girl! be strong yaaah! :)
ive been through that situation so so soooo many times .. but hooray !i can handle it now .. ! =) ..dont worry maria , everything will be just fine .. just smile and all the best .. !
all the best sis & take care of your health too.. ^^
akak taknak lah stress sgt..
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gud luck kakak elena. wish u all the best ^^
being the youngest to lead a project gives u advantage of not getting high expectation from the superiors, so that u can exceed their expectations :D
Good Luck and be strong, kak Maris. Anyway, new background?
kakak maria!!! bertabah! i will experience the same thing in a few years. wuwuwu. chaiyok!
kak maria..is it tough to be a process engineer??well the work does pay off..i.Allah Allah akan permudahkan segalanya :)
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be strong kak maria...!!=)
when we hear our hearts are beating fast, we know we are going through a REAL life:)
insyallah dgn izin ALLAH everything will goes smoothly;)
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bila baca entri, rasa nak nanges. nak2 bila part last tu. jangan la nak rush2 bekerja. hmm. industri sangat kejam ke kat fresh grads?
be strong girl!biasalah tu, pengalaman.huhu :D
go kak maria ! :)
semua tu challenges.
keep calm and go on with your life :)
Allah is always be by urside :)
kak maria is cool ;)
kak maria is cool ;)
i totally feel you. ive been there. :( which is why I am now back in school! cos tak tahan tak de respect or lack of it from the older colleagues.. :( sad tau..
goodluck ! :)
kak maria is strong womann :)
yehhh. best of luck !
be strong kak maria...
erm,bile bace post kak maria nih, rse gerun pon ade kat industry's world...cuz im engineer-to-be....nih yang wat rase nak sambung belajar jer pasni..adeh =_=
k.maria engineer major ape ehh?
Starting to respect u much more when knowing we in the same field...cha yuk !!
I LOVE SIS MARIA <3
chill laa~~ <---- mariaelena's style ..keep c0ol n u r awlys the best ..
amiin.. sabar.. thats the keyword for success. :)
U can do it coz u are a strong girl.. :D
takpe maghiaa..
teruskan ahak! ahak! dan ahak!
akak, chill la. u have sooo many supporters. btw, chck out my blog. -------> alyasabrinaofficial.blogspot.com :D
=) kerja apa pun ada tekanannya... dan biasa jugak kalau ada yang tak sampai tidur malam fikirkan kerja, sampai kurus kering... hiks.. =)
dan betul.. jangan la rushing sangat nak kerja.. enjoy hidup free lepas belajar kejap.. lepas tu sure takkan ada masa senggang nak rehat melainkan kita la yang pandai-pandai curi masa... huhuh..
p/s: nyesal dulu lepas belajar terus nak kerja. skang sangat-sangat letih. nak cuti pun fikir kerja. acane?
semangkaaaaa!!!! ;)
U don’t have to gain the respect while they actually dont think u deserve it. so let those disregards be.
just do your work, with smile, doa (semoga Allah lekas pandu u to escape to the right way) and do organize your work just according to your superior. every little bit. it definitely takes time for recognition, but when one approve that u will appreciate it more than the respect. chill (and smile of course!) :)
Hell yes...im experiencing the same situation now and even it effect my health..sometimes we do really need a motivation and strong faith..merangkak mmg susah, ditambah dengan ppl's respect tp bila di atas, rasa manisnyer:)
alamak rasa takut plak nak jadi engineer nanti -.-'
Same case here! tonnes of workload, major pressure when I need to workout 3 projects with 3 different bosses, different style of work at one time with 1 big project ahead. and I'm new.
Engineer may be a tough one, but I think I get used to it now, and somehow I like it. Hope you will overcome it and aye, CHILL ;)
dear Maria,
i'm quite silent reader of your blog..i'm engineer of oil n gas company..everything will be fine dear, as long as u done your job well, and tak susahkan org lain..what i'm applied in my work ethic is, "mudahkan kerja orang lain, so that kerja u pun akan dipermudahkan"..good luck dear..
wahh! alhamdulillah thank you all for your support and advices!!
insyallah things will be fine.
am trying my best but like izatul cakap, susah dulu nanti bila kat atas mesti manis. hehee!
tak sabar nak kat atas. hahahhaa!!!
thank you again you all!
korang memang TERBAEKKK!!!
one day, i wish to be like u :) Ingenieur insyaAllah.
Waaaa~~
Takotnyer nk keje~~
(-_-!!)
but we must face it right?
Go go kak Maria elena!!
never mine kak Maria~ just face the challenge with cute smile n happy always~ dont get too stress out.. dont skip your meal.. *peace~
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Be strong kak Maria <3
Aza aza fighting !! :D
maria tue pun ujian,ila terfikir-terfikir dan berfikir..hee
dlm hidup takda yg senang..
semuanya perlu kontrolkan jiwa..jgn mengeluh kak!!be strong~~
wahh. kak maria engineer ape?
apa-apa pon, lepak chill okayy. :)
nk jdik engineer mesti mau kuat dari segi fizikal dan mental~ [bak kata lecturer lahh ==,]
waa..maria... i agak cuak pulak bila dgr ingenieur life nih..
akan menghabiskan sisa2 pembelajaran ingenieur ini...
hye kak maria,suke tgok pic2 akak . hri tu sy pon de g melaka.n myb tmpt akk mkn ikn bakar tu sme ngn tmpt sy n my family makan..:)
betul3.. lately facing with the same prob la sis.. ingineur lady ni susah sikit nk direspek oleh org bawah.. penatnyer la kan.. Suya pun facing the same problem as urs rasanya.. mana nak siapkan project and at the same time processing in progress.. haishhh benci
huhu...sounds more like my engineering field, factory, production,line and technicians n so-on...adekah anda manufacturing juger?!! =))
engineer cool!!
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