jannah

assalamualaikum,

a lot of us say that we want to be in jannah, be together forever in jannah, be friends in jannah, be neighbours in jannah.

yes, our ultimate goal for the life in the Hereafter is Paradise.

"...until he loves for his brother what he loves for himself"

i want my family & friends to be in jannah.
i want all muslims to be in jannah.

i remember when i started wearing shawls, when i started to cover my aurat.
i wasn't really covering my aurat then. i was still wearing skinny jeans, 3/4 long sleeve shirts, my shawl didn't cover my chest, my neck was exposed.
ah, you name it la.

and gradually, an increase of comments from people requesting, asking, and advised me to take out all of my past pictures of me not covering up got my attention.

at first i was annoyed.
i thought that it's my right, since it is my blog and it's my life.
"my past is past la! why do you have to judge me based on my past? that's between me and Allah!" said the old me.
naive la kan masa tu.

in the end, i just ignored those comments.

and then, one time i went to usrah, and i asked the ustaz about aib manusia.

from what i understand about aib ni, we should do our best to cover it.
tutup aib sendiri. tutup aib orang.

why?
sebab aib ni boleh timbulkan fitnah.

fine, orang yang fitnah kita la kena jahanam nanti. tapi, kita yang bagi diorang the reason to fitnah, then kita pun kira cari pasal kan.

that's why we shouldn't share intimate things or specific details of our household to others, lagi lagi dalam blog, twitter, facebook and all. sebab kena jaga aib keluarga. especially husband.

same goes to our friends and families.

our aurats are our aib too.
so kalau kita tak nak orang share aib kita when we've tried so hard to keep it hidden, then why should we expose orang lain punya aib?
walaupun orang tu kata tak kisah - itu sekarang. what if esok lusa dia berubah? what if dia dah berniqab before us?
what right do we have to show others (and strangers) our loved ones' aurat?
we don't.

if we truly love each other, truly want jannah together, shouldn't we protect each other?

so i've tried my very best to tutup aib diri sendiri, and even others. i've deleted from every source i can reach and even messaged and emailed people to get rid of my old pics. tapi tu pun, i don't know if i covered it all.
i know some people yang dah berhijrah pun ada this problem..

there are times i had to share pics of others yang tak tutup aurat.. sebab kerja la, kena tolong promote event orang la, and my cousin being in the entertainment industry, sometimes i terpaksa share gambar dia.. dia pun nak cari rezeki kan and i nak tolong.
tapi i delete after i feel people got the message. tu pun i rasa guilty sangat. and up till today, i don't know if it was the right thing to do. in future, what i should i do in this circumstance? any advice?

i still struggle with this. i sometimes have the urge to share pictures of me with my family and friends (yang tak tutup aurat la) and kekadang i hampir tak kisah dah pasal benda ni.
tapi kena jugak psycho and remind myself over and over again that i can't and i shouldn't.
not for my sake, but for theirs.

i ni takde la kuat sangat.
that's why i'm sharing this now.
because i hope you (my friends, family, readers) can help me and keep me on this path i've chosen.
and because i i truly want jannah for everyone.

ps: considering this to be a late night rambling, i hope that i got my message across.
this has been on my mind lately, padahal it's cerita lama. i actually needed guts to share this.
thank you for reading.
and thank you for understanding.