Lumut Industrial Park, 21 April 2009, Tuesday
i got my safety shoes on(which is as big as a boat. baling-kat-anjing-pasti-mati shoes, i call it), my so-called-bullet-proof-jacket and the safety helmet.
went to the yard where the modules of da offshore platform were installed and made.
they literally stopped.
they freaking gawked at me!
i swear, it was da most painful walk i had ever had to endure.
on the platform, some men had their handphones out, it seemed. i didnt notice coz i was too busy checking da pipelines and the continuity lines.
and they bloody hell took pictures of me!
a fellow colleague came to me and said
"maria, kau ni.. too pretty to be an engineer la"
i was so surprised by dat random comment, i just stared at him.
my mind started reeling.
"wat da hell am i supposed to do then? quit? but im in my 3rd year already.. how am i supposed to pay petronas? will mom get mad? abah?? why am i too pretty to be an engineer? etc etc.."
and i tell you, that wasnt all.
my colleague also said i was distracting his workers.
and dat he's getting stressed out coz he feels he has to look after me and himself when working.
im a freaking burden rupanya.
Lumut Industrial Park, 22 April 2009
i tried to act professional when i went onboard.
i had my serious face on, i was very independent and i moved swiftly between the pipes and oh! i got into a separator! i was inside the vessel!! i felt like crying due to overwhelming feeling of awesomeness(pelik kan?) and i was grinning like a stupid 5 year old after dat.
the men could estimate my age after witnessing my reaction. they assumed i was 18 years old.
so my colleague came up to me and said
"maria, gambar kau dah org distribute dah kat sini"
i was angry of course, but he was laughing so i didnt know if i was supposed to take it as a compliment or complain about it.
i decided to let it go. if they liked a belacan-faced-rambut-messy-18 year old girl, then i hope u'll get a hell of a beating from your wives.
so now these questions still linger in my mind.
am i too pretty to be an engineer?
wat da hell am i supposed to do now?