donkey ass time

my heart is struggling

my stomach is twisting inside out

my legs itching for a new land

my palms are sweaty

my mind is not focused

my soul feels trapped

my eyes hurt from restraining tears

i am craving

yearning

for excitement

for adrenaline

for adventure

for fun

for a set of keys to let all this out

i am not joking

i feel jittery

daring myself every now and then

i have been holding myself back from running around the plant

also from screaming at the top of my lungs until my guts spill

i want to break the alarm

i want to create chaos

i fucking need freedom